Sunday, January 18, 2009
Back to school
Back to tutoring
Back with Alex Cross
Back to gym
wat a way to start 2009!!
i tink many had set some new year resolutions for 2009 and summed up wat they achieved/accomplished/still striving for in 2008. well.. i didnt set anyting for myself last yr.. hmm maybe one. to pass and get on to my final yr in SIM. and for tis yr.. i'm almost resigned to fate. come wat may.
after a short break for xmas and new yr, everyting is now back on track. i hae lesser time to think abt the unthinkable and more time on constructive events in life - my degree.
feeling the need to get serious and start preparing for the FINAL exam. promised myself to start the engine after CNY. Mock exams is predicted to start in mid feb which is just a month away. how to revise like tat!?!?
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mummy touched on sth tat was so sudden last nite.
she talked to me abt marriage. not hers. mine.
one of our neighbours, 23, got married last aug. the couple have been together for more than 7 yrs. mummy told me tat i used to bad-mouthed abt her having a boyfriend at such a young age and tat i always see them together under the void deck or us taking the same lift back. her in her school uniform. ( i dun remember tat i did becoz i was dating ard the same time as she is but watever. )
he is in his thirties now so his family is pushing him to get married as soon as possible. i understand and i believe it's not easy for 2 individuals to be in touch or in a relationship for 7yrs. how many friends did you manage to hold on to tat is over a decade?
then mummy started to tell me tat only boys who are sincere and responsible will bring you home to meet his parents. and me to bring him home if i tink he's serious about me. i started to 'err-s and ermm-s' and told her tat isnt so true now. and especially so when i hae a protective father.
i remember times when my father chased the boys i was with on different occasions. most werent my bfs. if he was lucky to catch one, he will reprimand him right on the spot. some managed to escape unhurt and they will call back to tell me they are okay. but i wasnt going to be. father will question me abt 'the friend' i was with and i will insist tat i was walking back alone. no one was with me. i know he doesnt take my story but in the end he will let it go with a warning. even one of my uncles caught me on the streets. he called me the nx day asking if it was me tat he saw. i was lucky tat he didnt honk at me on the spot. it's so insecure to hae so many relatives as taxi-drivers.
so.. tat was why i have nv been truthful to my parents regarding relationship issues. not even now. i dun like to be hiding all these from them but.. i dont hae a choice.
BUT!
i'm 21 now.. maybe just maybe i should own up if i see the chance to.
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i was explaining to xw the meaning of spinster when she stopped me and declared proudly, "my sisters and i already promise to be spinsters! we dont wan to get married. we want to stay together with mummy daddy and my grandparents."
then she added on, " miss koh, you also wan to spinster? like us?"
i could only give a weak smile and continue teaching.
A woman without a man is like a fish without a bicycle.
blabber jabber
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11:11 PM
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