Sunday, October 26, 2008
i realised that we are still humans after all. there are times when we break down and cry. there are times when we feel so numb that we cant numb ourselves anymore. there are times when we allow our pride to get in our way. there are times when we allow love to blind us.
we are humans after all. nobody is able to make a perfect choice, live a perfect life and be the perfect man. being perfect is subjective and pointless. happiness is the key in life. it's useless to 'delay' wat you wanna do for sth you dislike. fulfill your main duties in life but always take time off to do tings you enjoy. dun say you will wait until you finish the project, until next weekend, until the summer break, until you feel like doing it. when will your 'until' be finished? there's always a whole load of new and unfinished stuff coming and there's nv enuff time in life. so why waste time.
a lifetime is made up of 6, 7 maybe if you're lucky 8,9 decades. 2tens had passed and i m left with just tat much. responsibility as a student will soon be over and i'll be moving to the nx phase. the part of life where most people lost their souls in search for riches and fame. i dun wanna be like them but wat can i do to live a comfortable life? the ever rising expenses and expectation from the society. the struggle between the self and I.
there will be somebody guiding me, rite?
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have you ever cry while listening to a song? tinking abt the lyrics, relating to your life, your emotions, the tings you went thru or something you hope to hae.
these are heartsongs. songs tat are able to touch your heart. lyrics that can send shivers down your spine, tunes tat will loop in your head for a few days. i hae some and so do you.
it dun hae to be a pop song or a heart wrenching ballad. it can be anyting that will leave an unusual impression when you first hear it. there're some songs tat i will post the lyrics down becoz of the meaningful lyrics or tat song might be telling wat i was going through or feeling. there're songs which made me teared when i listened the first time. some are sad ballads, some are meaningful songs tat inspire me abt life while some are just becoz of their tunes.
those are my songs. my heartfelt songs.
我還記得那一首歌
那首我愛的歌
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Saturday, October 25, 2008
I need to believe tat it was all hallucinations. there's nth more to it.
nothing..
but
something kept tugging my strings. making me uncomfortable.
i hope i didnt know.
i'm a big girl now
and big girls dun cry..
blabber jabber
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Saturday, October 11, 2008
heyea! finally have the time to sit down in front of the computer and do some non-serious work. october is a busybusy month.
i'm going to be extremely busy for another 2 weeks. so to not miss out an archive for 'October', i came online specially to post sth before october ends. it's tat fast and i m tat packed. wanted to skipped tis month and wake up when october ends but it cant happen. so i m here, going thru all these shit. once it is over, i'll be undertaking another assignment. however, tis time round, it will be very different from the previous few. i will be enjoying it. i must and i will.
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some closetoheart issues were partially solved and everything seems fine, for now. just got to wait til nov before the result is out. there were lots of frustration tat i wanted to pen down but.. well, after awhile the auguish faded off. the feeling of helplessness and uncertainty can drive me crazy. i almost wanted to give up and let everyting go. everything. but i know, if i dun cherish it now, i will nv get tat chance again.
sometimes, people say tings at the spur of the moment. i dun mean wat i say, wat i do. it just happened at tat second becoz i wasnt thinking right. and it's useless to apologize after doing it. i'm learning to control. controlling myself at tat second to avoid doing sth i will regret later. a tiny mistake made in a spilt second can cause a lifetime of regret. i dun wanna grieve over another foolish blunder.
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my 'registered' drinking pals have all disappeared into thin air. my god. they are busy preparing/having exams leaving me all alone on the weekends nights. i tot i was the one going MIA.
no more boozing = no form of relaxation
=> able to save $$ BUT stress. so how?
and therefore, i m 'cultivating' new drinking buddies. LOL.
i'm finding watever excuses i can get to drink.. like attending some one's wedding, nth to do while waiting for fren, going to best fren's best fren's birthday party, beer is cheaper than water. watever.
watever.
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i remember reading tis from somewhere..
life's like juggling. you are responsible for controlling the balls in your hands. in life, we hae many different positions we're responsible for. work is a rubber ball which is able to bounce back whenever it falls. health, love, family n the other hand, are glass balls. they are fragile and once it's broken, it is irreversible. so take time off your work/studies, pay attention to the other balls in your life, work will bounce back to you when the time is right.
Everyday you take for granted
is another day withered away...
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