Sunday, September 28, 2008
my schedule had been screwed up after school reopened. shifting tuition and cancelling some meet ups. lost a lot of my own personal time just to prepare the kids for their final year exams.
take it as a sacrifice. it's my only source of income since i graduated from jc. i need them to pay for my expenses and bills. phone, computer and the Internet. everyting tat i spent on. everyting tat i owned.
some conflicting feelings. some confusion moments. but i tink i m pretty clear now abt how i feel. tat nite when we were walking out together, i knew how everyting will go.
i tink wat i was missing wasnt you. it was our moments together. i tink wat i loved wasnt you. it felt tat way becoz of the circumstances. i need to keep my head above the water. i cant mixed up my feelings like tat again. hang in there, girl.
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i waited for the last min before i picked up my phone and texted her. a part of me wanted to be there but i wasnt sure if i will end up in an awkward situation. i stil went in the end.
we were late but the real show only started near the finishing of the 3rd quarter. the 'thrilling' match on 'skills and mental strength' broke into an awful fight. it wasnt the normal shoving and pushing ard. verbal threats were heard over the commotion. helmets, chairs and even the bball starred the event. i quickly pulled a pregnant lady out to a safe corner before goin back to bring the other girls out. i was smart enuff to not try and step in to 'help'. i knew i wouldnt be let off unharmed. many others were rooted to the ground. i saw a girl being brought out by her fren, i supposed, and she was sobbing in fear.
everyting happened too quickly. the benches were overturned and someone was cornered under the scoreboard. i couldnt see who the person was but i know there was a mob of ppl standing over him, blowing punches and kicks. he was the unlucky one.
one ball was 'thundered' over the mob of ppl and was hurled to the area behind. it went straight on ray's gf and bounced off her forehead. *ouch* her back was facing me but i can see her trembling. i quickly went over and brought her to where the rest were. i had cleanly forgotten abt her. shit. she didnt say anyting, i reckon she was too shocked. poor ting.
if i m the one who got hurt, wat will i do? wat can i do? wat will he do?
many questions tossing in my head and i was totally out of the whole situation. i felt someone hugging me and brought me back. jmry and yj was hurt, pretty badly. tat fucking fat asshole slammed the helmet onto his head. yj got some scratches on his back. police were called in and they even brought a stretcher. jmry had his head bandaged and refused to come back in. he said he looked so ugly now. hahahz.. in fact, he looks cute with his head all wrapped up. xiaokeai.
he said someting tat touched me. 'if i wasnt the one, anyone of you here will get it.' i almost fell in love.
but he's attached.
everyone was upset tat this had to happen. i was mad at one particular person. if he had controlled himself, nth like tis will happen. his quick-temper endangered everyone present. now everyting lies in the hands of the committee. the verdict will be out tmr. i just hope it would be in our favour. we are the innocent party.
lengleng needs to learn his lesson. and if both parties were disqualified, i will definitely not forgive him. at least for 6 months.
anyway, if anyone is concerned abt me.. hahahz.. i m perfectly fine. i had faced worse situations than tat. in fact, i was there 'jokin' ard to relax the whole situation. the girls were all tensed up and worried tat their bfs might get hurt. if my bf got dragged in, maybe, just maybe i might be foolish enuff to 'help'.
How great love can be.
How much love can change a person.
blabber jabber
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