Green Green Grass of Home

i tot we could live our own lives, separately. you in your own home and me in mine. nth would happen between us. there couldnt be any problem if we stop seeing each other. there would be no insults, no remarks, no interaction, no nothing. i thought everyting will just go away.

i was too naive.

but i was wrong. the past kept haunting me. i stil remembered tat phone call i made. i still remember the words you said. fuck, wat wrong did i do. from the moment i put down the receiver, i knew. i knew i would detest you for all my life.

i have enuff of you.

walking away isnt the best solution becoz you would just go on and on. you dun care abt anyone. wat the fuck is all the so-called meetings for. there's nth to discuss. we had no rights to say aniting so why do i hae to be there. you are only using the opportunity to inform us, it wasnt anything close to a meeting. might as well called it an assembly. a gathering to spread news. gathering might be an overstatement, there wasnt any fun in catching up with you.

i dun hope for anything now.

i can alr see our future. when THE ONE falls, we will be living like individuals. the wound you inflicted on me will not go away. the hurt you gave will not lessen. it will only get worse as time pasts. i only have more hatred for you. no sympathy. no love.

only god knows why.

i dun hope tat you would receive any due retribution coz it might be my own karma. fate decided we should meet. but it didnt sae our relation should last and you are definitely not someone worthy to keep by me.

you hae no part in my life so get lost.

being mum abt it doesnt mean tat i m on the same line as you. i just doesnt wan to hae anyting to do with you anymore. the forced smile is only to brush you off. you can sae anyting you wan. i m respecting you, your point of view. watever fucking point you wanna carry forward is totally bullshit. self-centred fucker.

i m not done with you, yet.

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