Tuesday, September 02, 2008
am booKless for a couple of weeks and wonder how did i get myself so busy tat i dun even hae time to go to my personal lib. the nightly routine of novel craze stil eats into me. feeling a little lost when i got into bed and had nth in hand. nth to coax me to slp, no more bedtime story.
so i have early nitez rests and often woke up at 6 7 am feeling zany. i will stay awake and listen as my kitchen comes to life. the sound of mummy making coffee. the loud gargling from my father. flushing of the toilet. slippers flip-flopping outside my door. funny. and i cant get back to slp. =(
not becoz of the sound coming from them. i know i m able to fall back to slp even with the noises but recently, i just cant. maybe i m too used to 5hours power nap. and 6 7 hours is too much a luxury for me.
i miss sleeping.
BUT. beer helps. i now believe the ppl who say tat German beers' the best. wat's tiger, hoegarden or asahi after you have tasted German beers. and abt tis, i will write on it another day. hahahz..
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3 months had passed. i hae been bumming ard for almost 3 months, without noticing. when it was nearing the end of aug, everyone started speculating when the results are coming out. i was a little tensed whenever we tok abt tat and i expected our sch portal to gif us an early notice, well at least 1 day beforehand.
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got a missed call from denise and a msg from jing after i'd finished my tuition. i didnt open the msg but the preview of it showed sth i didnt expect.
"HEY!! results are out!"
concise and to the point. i dun need to think much and returned the call.
i was on the train to tamp to meet jia. asked jing to help to check for my results. i tink i got a little excited and my voice got louder and louder.
"好了没有?"
"还在load leiz..."
"为什么这么慢!!!"
"EHH!! 好了好了!"
"你慢慢告诉我..."
"WAO!!"
"HHHUUHH! 什么?"
got the disgusted look from some of the other passengers in the same cabin. hahahz..
well, I CLEARED ALL!! the whole suspense was driving me crazy.
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so the nx day, we went for a mini celebration. some shopping, drinking and feasting. the Japanese food bazaar was okie. i dun fancy jap food much so i would tink tat some dishes are a little overvalued. to each his own.
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if wat you meant is true gratitude, i will accept it with both hands, arms and elbows.
but,
if it's pure mockery, i would be too lowly to accept your praises. pls take them all back and keep them safely in your pockets.
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life is full of uncertainties but one ting's for sure, everyone will die one day. some sooner, some later. either by unknown or known causes.
if you're really free and needed sth to occupy your mind, read on.
and dun regret reading it.
let's imagine this:
you are in the middle of a desert with only a big bowl of water and nth else. a spherical container which is able, miraculously, to supply an infinite amt of water. BUT it is heavy. if you were, at any instance, place the bowl on the sand to rest your tired arms, you will lose tis source of water, forever.
so will you carry tis 'blessed burden' and walk thru the desert hoping you will, one day, find a way out or get save by whoever? wat if you were saved at a age of 80?
or
just lie there and wait to die? knowing tat you will die one day even if you found a way out.
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life's like tat. ironic but engaging. there are so many perspectives to a single object. you can choose to believe it tis way and agree with the opposing view. everyting can be made to sound logical but it will only be correct when you believe it.
earning lots of money seems logical. but at the expense of my family/love/happiness? only unsound ppl do tat.
so go back to the desert problem. you are stuck inside tis stupid situation, you hae no other helpline but the bowl of water. wat will you do? wat can you do?
or maybe you hae an even better solution other than the choices i posed. "sorry, i dun answer hypothetical question." is out.
any regrets? hahahahz..
TATA~
It's not over until it's over.
blabber jabber
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11:30 PM
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