Saturday, August 02, 2008
having a terrible headache for the whole day. sucks. i cant even get up properly without feeling faint. i tink i need chocos. more choco. tried to avoid taking any chocos for fear of having more pimples but hell, headache sucks more.
i need my daily dose. NOW!!
if i were to hae any appt todae, i couldn't be able to make it but luckily, im staying home. packed my messy table. no more stacks of notes, receipts, bills, wrappers, clips, coins, hairbands, books and stationary strewn all over. i hae a neat and tidy table, for the time being. it will get messy very soon. but at least it make me feel good. i cleaned up my table. well, the other part of the room is pretty okie. so there's no need for me to do much abt it. hahahz..
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received a slip from bank and i realized i actually spent so much over 4days. i need to control myself, better.
whenever i said, "我没有钱, 先借我." i will get a look but it will still be paid. and even jia told me tat i hae been using tat phrase for the last 1 or 2 months, thou we didnt get to meet up as often now. it just happens tat i hae no cash in my wallet and i will pay them back as soon as i find an ATM. really.
and so tis week i didnt spend much. we went for a movie, UOB cardholders only 6bucks, shopping, window shopping for me, and some nice meals. nice and cheap meals. i wan more black sesame paste. SO NICE!
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i wasnt myself tat day and she knew. even thou it was a big day for her, a day she had been looking forward to and even thou i didnt hae the heart to chip in much, she understood. she didnt blame me. all she did was smiled and assured me tat it was alrite. she understood.
i tried to do watever i had planned but it didnt go well. i tried to do watever i can, but i just cant get it rite. so i gave up and just follow the flow. no surprises. no stupidrubbish from me. i even forgot the flowers. everyting wasnt going well for me but i just hang in there. at least to make my presence felt. to let her know tat i m there.
luckily i had told her beforehand wat she needs to do, wat she needs to expect and how to handle if any situation arises. i had called to remind her the stuff she needs before she left her place. i tried to help watever i can, however i can. and i didnt mind. not at all. i just wished tat i could do better than tat.
if nth had happened, i wouldnt be like tat. but i didnt mind. and she understands. a simple gesture to show your appreciation. a simple note to make my day. a simple fren to fill up my life.
i m contented.
Looking back it all just seems so far, so far away
blabber jabber
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12:33 AM
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