Green Green Grass of Home

it's always difficult to break bad news, esp one that concerns about you, your life, your heart, your hope. when i received the text, i stopped in my track and grasped on to jia. the first word tat came out of my mouth was 'ohmygod'. i didnt know wat i should do or how i should acknowledge the msg. i returned with a 'are you alrite?'

called cherie to find out wat had happened, finished up my stuff and went down to the place. it was past midnight and many had left. i'm bad at consoling and we would only hold on and cry. it's hard to recount and repeat everyting tat happened in details. but i can see the pain in the eyes. the loss. the reluctance. the slash.

the end of the sufferings. the beginning of the future.
jiayou! everyone will be behind you!

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hadnt had a proper slp last week. too many tings, too little time. dunnoe where to start but i realized i need to start everyting anew. like a newborn baby. i need to relearn all the basics.

how to see life. how to live. how to live life.

you dun need to hae everyting perfected. wat you need is to accept all the imperfections and make it perfect for yourself. make yourself happy. you live for yourself. you do wat makes you happy, wat makes the ppl you love happy and tat's wat makes life happy.

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tis week is the exact opposite. i had a good rest. a good break. a good time to be alone and reflect. maybe i didnt really know how others see me as. maybe i had been deceiving myself all this while. maybe i read too much. maybe there isnt aniting wrong with me. maybe it's all their fault. the world's fault. money's fault. it's not my fault. there isnt aniting wrong with me.

hhaa.

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i will always remember wat Terrence said.
i dun need any best friends.

all i need is 1 true friend.

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7:25 PM

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