Green Green Grass of Home

Are you okie?

Every time someone asks me tat question, i say, "i'm fine, thank you," but to be honest i'm not. do people really want to know how you feel when they ask, "How are you?"? Or are they trying to be polite?

the nx time the woman across the road from my house says to me, "How are you?" I'm going to say to her, "Well, actually, i'm not veri well at all, thank you. i'm feeling a bit depressed and lonely. Pissed off at the world. Envious of you and your perfect little family but not particularly envious of your husband at having to live with you. And then I'll tell her abt how i started a new term and met many new people and how i'm trying hard to pick myself up but tat I'm now at a loss abt wat else to do. Then i'll tell her how it pisses mi off when everyone says time is a healer when at the same time they also say absence makes the heart grow fonder, which really confuses me, becoz tat means tat the longer he's gone the more i want him. I'll tell her tat nothing is healing at all and tat every morning i wake up in my empty bed it feels like salt is being rubbed into those unhealing wounds. And then I'll tell her how much i miss him and abt how worthless my life seems without him. how uninterested I'm in getting on with tings without him and I'll explain how i feel like I'm just waiting for my world to end so tat i can join him."

and guess wat her reply would be?

blabber jabber @
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