Tuesday, November 20, 2007

the fone vibrated on the kitchen cabinet.
"reaching. walking there now"

quickly changed, packed my bag and went down. i was toking to myself in the lift. trying to look calm yet the mixed emotions kept in my heart started to wake up. walked briskly over, he was there, with his back facing mi, in a white top and an army printed berms. it's our 4th attempt to meet up.

almost a yr ago, he was wearing a different white tshirt. he likes to wear white or i should sae, i like to see him in white. i dunno why. okie. it was the 'cooling off period'. he said he needed time to be alone. so i let him be. i stopped contacting him.

i remembered he sms-ed mi on my birthdae. he asked to meet up for dinner or sth to celebrate my birthdae. i was thrilled but i didnt show. when i alight from the buz, he was alr there. i remembered it was 8pm. and coincidentally, we were both in white. he held my hand when we were waiting at the junction. i tot everyting was back to normal. he saw his fren, with his gf. i sensed that they were shocked to see mi. he tried to loosen his grip but i didnt let go. i dun wan to.

decided to catch a movie. he promised to watch Happy Feet with mi, before he initiated the cool off. i knew he had alr watched tat, with her. but i didnt sae.
"let's watch Flags of our Father?"
"i tot you wan to watch happy feet? i wan to watch Happy Feet."
"but i dun wan to watch tat now."

both of us fell aslp in the theatre. he was tired, i was bored. tried to stay awake. i pinched him but he juz brushed my hands away. we didnt catch much of the show. actually, not at all. i dun like 'wars and fighting' kind of movies. after tat, he walked mi to the buz stop.

we stood behind the crowd. i didnt sae aniting althou i hae so much to tell him. how horrible i felt, the many slpless nights etc.. the buz stil hadnt come and i wished tat it never. i hoped we could stand like tat, close to one another, forever. the atmosphere was rather awkward but i dun mind.

suddenly, he turned mi ard and hugged mi. i was taken back. i almost cried in his arms. he held mi tight and gave a peck on my lips. then, we were back.. standing on our own. everyting happened too fast. too fast for mi to react.

boarded the buz, waved goodbye and it realli meant a good bye.

he later told mi tat everything was becoz.. it was my birthdae. there was nth special. and i knew wat he was trying to tell mi althou i told him i dun. they're his presents for mi. my freedom...

gave him a tap from the back, "Hi." he turned ard and smiled. he looks the same. we didnt change much, thou. while waiting for my buz, it was the same awkward quietness. but our situations are veri different now. i tried to look unaffected but i guess it didnt bother him at all. he told mi tat he had gained alot becoz he does almost nth at work. eat slack eat. i didnt notice ani big difference. he's stil the same him.

boarded the buz...
but tis time, he didnt wait to see mi wave goodbye......

blabber jabber @
10:57 PM

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