Saturday, November 24, 2007
*my bed for a nite*
Jing's BDAE!!
*saw aniting faimilar?*
*not the Xmen poster. our present!! she haven get it up yet*
the making:
first, we got to choose some photos. luckily, i took the leftovers photos after doing jia's photo frame tat time. ahahz.. started on the colours of the card, how it will look like and the moving writeup for her. after reaching to a decision, we started the 'cut and paste' process. jia went to slp at ard 12 so tat she can watch her soccer matches later. tat leaves mi doing it alone. woke her up at ard 2 and.. i wasnt done with it yet. juz some touch-ups which jia is VERY good in. *ermm* ya, she likes to add a little of sth everywhere.
so, it was my turn to turn in. hahaz.. didnt realli fall aslp. watched a little of the matches until 6 in the morning.
THE dinner.
after mani mani rounds of suggestions and 'feed backs', we went to rice table for our buffet dinner. had a couple of rounds. it's.. DElicious. woo~ i m missing it now.
Presentssss..
* wat's with tat look? *
jing FINALLY got her wish come true. her nutella cake from polar =)
* she went, "ooh..." *
*pose*
*wish*
*blow*
*cut*
but the cake wasnt wat we had expected it to be. hahaz.. she muz have felt so disappointed after wanting it for a yr.
* their expressions tell it all *
after the hearty meal, we went to Starbucks to chill. yea, chill out ladies..
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Friday, November 23, 2007
Happy Birthday to MI!!
it's my lunar birthdae, 23rd Nov'07
=) hahahaz.. i know tis is lame and most ppl wont be bothered abt it. but stil, I m 2ty, in my mother's eyes. hahaz..
she always tot tat i m alr in my twenties, early twenties. even when i told her repeatedly tat i m onli 9teen. *sigh* she realli hopes tat i can grow up faster.
i doubt there'll be ani big difference in my life. it's juz.. 'Oh! i m a year older now.' kind of ting. no big plans and i dunnoe wat lies ahead. i'm juz passing each dae as it is.
as long as everyone ard mi is happie, i m happie =)
you'll always be kept at the farthest, darkest corner in my heart.
slowli, everyone would hae forgotten abt it.
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Tuesday, November 20, 2007
the fone vibrated on the kitchen cabinet.
"reaching. walking there now"
quickly changed, packed my bag and went down. i was toking to myself in the lift. trying to look calm yet the mixed emotions kept in my heart started to wake up. walked briskly over, he was there, with his back facing mi, in a white top and an army printed berms. it's our 4th attempt to meet up.
almost a yr ago, he was wearing a different white tshirt. he likes to wear white or i should sae, i like to see him in white. i dunno why. okie. it was the 'cooling off period'. he said he needed time to be alone. so i let him be. i stopped contacting him.
i remembered he sms-ed mi on my birthdae. he asked to meet up for dinner or sth to celebrate my birthdae. i was thrilled but i didnt show. when i alight from the buz, he was alr there. i remembered it was 8pm. and coincidentally, we were both in white. he held my hand when we were waiting at the junction. i tot everyting was back to normal. he saw his fren, with his gf. i sensed that they were shocked to see mi. he tried to loosen his grip but i didnt let go. i dun wan to.
decided to catch a movie. he promised to watch Happy Feet with mi, before he initiated the cool off. i knew he had alr watched tat, with her. but i didnt sae.
"let's watch Flags of our Father?"
"i tot you wan to watch happy feet? i wan to watch Happy Feet."
"but i dun wan to watch tat now."
both of us fell aslp in the theatre. he was tired, i was bored. tried to stay awake. i pinched him but he juz brushed my hands away. we didnt catch much of the show. actually, not at all. i dun like 'wars and fighting' kind of movies. after tat, he walked mi to the buz stop.
we stood behind the crowd. i didnt sae aniting althou i hae so much to tell him. how horrible i felt, the many slpless nights etc.. the buz stil hadnt come and i wished tat it never. i hoped we could stand like tat, close to one another, forever. the atmosphere was rather awkward but i dun mind.
suddenly, he turned mi ard and hugged mi. i was taken back. i almost cried in his arms. he held mi tight and gave a peck on my lips. then, we were back.. standing on our own. everyting happened too fast. too fast for mi to react.
boarded the buz, waved goodbye and it realli meant a good bye.
he later told mi tat everything was becoz.. it was my birthdae. there was nth special. and i knew wat he was trying to tell mi althou i told him i dun. they're his presents for mi. my freedom...
gave him a tap from the back, "Hi." he turned ard and smiled. he looks the same. we didnt change much, thou. while waiting for my buz, it was the same awkward quietness. but our situations are veri different now. i tried to look unaffected but i guess it didnt bother him at all. he told mi tat he had gained alot becoz he does almost nth at work. eat slack eat. i didnt notice ani big difference. he's stil the same him.
boarded the buz...
but tis time, he didnt wait to see mi wave goodbye......
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Sunday, November 18, 2007
It's a beautiful sunday~
wat a beautiful day~
i hae class on a sunday~
hahaz.. a make up class for strategy. it'll be my last time seeing/attending Mr ho's lecture. he'll be relieved by mr. zhang as he'd to undergo an operation for his.. illness. wish him all the best for the surgery and fast recovery! =)
有人说感情是一份债,
如果不是你欠别人的,
就是别人欠你的.
大家都是债主, 彼此的债主.
注定今生要用来讨债的.
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Thursday, November 15, 2007
strategy finished almost an hour early yeste.
pleasantly shocked.
we didnt rush down the stairs like we used to be. 154 was alr at the stop waiting for us. everyting was soo smooth. reached eunos at 630. i hae another hour more to go. tot of walkin down to kembangan but ycc and yw was nice to stay a while longer for 7 to come. chatted abt our days in tpjc. yw's admirer. our pri sch. our canteen. the good old days.
took a buz down wif ycc and strolled towards the little one's place. i was there, on the dot. opened the gate gently and closed it behind mi. the house was quiet, too quiet. the lights were on. everyting looks th same but the feeling in mi, worried. stepped into the house, heard some running steps and........... "miss, sir nv call you?"
"didnt. why?"
"no tuition todae. xiaowen went for er jie's concert."
"HUH? ( in the calm-est tone i can come out wif...)"
"sir nv call you?"
"didnt. okie, nvm."
"i call sir. you sit awhile."
"it's okie." cont to stand nx to the door.
"sir nv pick up. sorry miss."
"it's okie. nvm nvm."
"sorry miss" repeatedly while sendin mi out.
"nvm. it's okie." sensed the awkwardness.
i tried to lift the edges of my lips, "nvm, it's okie. i'll tok to her grandfather on friday then."
splendid.
每一株玫瑰都有刺,
正如每一个人的性格中, 都有你不能容忍的部分.
爱护一朵玫瑰, 并不是得努力把它的刺根除,
只能学习如何不被它的刺刺伤,
还有如何不让自己的刺刺伤心爱的人.
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早知道与你的相恋是个误区
却走不出你捉摸不定的痴迷
总以为终于找到难得的知己
却原来这是一场无情的游戏
从此后漂泊的心在何处栖息
还会不会又浓情酿酒的泪滴
茫茫人海除了自己还会有谁
让我每夜将千千首歌唱给你
人生的路途遥远而又扑朔迷离
不知在哪个车站我们又会相遇
执手相看已不再有往日的情感
却难挥去那份刻苦铭心的记忆
并非只有失去之后才懂得珍惜
也不必对错过的一切追悔莫及
高山流水依然是我永远的寻觅
不再苛求爱恨随缘聚散两相依
我的爱恋, 沉寂在那清清泪光里... ...
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Wednesday, November 14, 2007
how a person tinks affects how a person lives.
everyone hae regrets in life but not everyone is able to stand up fast from the fall.
some ppl choose to relive the pain, carve deeper into their souls.
some ppl choose to accept them, and walk out of the shadows.
the more you tink abt them, the more pain and suffering you brought to yourself.
no matter how badly you'd done, learn from it and not commit it again.
reliving the past will only add to your torture.
changing your mindset and the way you see tings will greatli affect the quality of your life.
learn to recognize and accept as it is.
dun let your mistake drag. when it's over, it's over.
why do you stil carry the burden when you try to walk away. leave it at where it happened.
i said i needed time. i noe tat's an excuse.
it's onli becoz i hadnt let go. hadnt put down the load.
tat's why i feel miserable. tat's why i dun smile. tat's why...
holding it brings no happiness, reliving it brings no joy.
so wat the heck am i tinkin?!! i dunnoe.
maybe, i m juz plain stupid.a silly foolish ger.
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i did my assignments and handed them in punctually. everyone of them. =)
i feel great!
tests, the big 2 and XMAS are coming!!
OOooHHHhhhhH!! i cant wait!!
school's been wonderful. it took up quite a lot of my time. plus my little one. =)
i feel so alive again.
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chanced upon tis great poem when i was borrowin some books for my little one..
Nobody is to blame
Nobody is to blame
When someone loses his flame
Nobody is to blame
When things go wrong
When the world forget the song
When you get lost in the throng
Nobody is to blame
Nobody is to blame
Why muz we fix the blame?
Why muz we spread the shame?
Why muz we take away the flame?
When things go wrong
Help someone to move along
When things go wrong
Help someone to be strong
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so now, i m going to be MI!
the defiant, nonchalant mi.
一个懂得付出,
一个懂得珍惜,
这也许才是世界上最最圆满的爱情
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Tuesday, November 06, 2007
i used to note down everyting tat i had done here.
but the lazi bug strike. i missed out on quite a number of meaningful tings tat happened and affected mi. tried to keep myself occupied. tried to start my revision. tried to control my emotions. tried to bring back the old mi..
i miss being myself. i miss the way i enjoyed life. the way i "dun gif a damn" abt wat's happening. the times when i loved sports, i stil do, but there are almost no motivation for it. it's not becoz i dun hae the time. i juz dun do it.
people ard mi change, so will i. dun call it peer pressure but peer influence. nobody can force mi to do sth unless i myself wanted to do it. i do tings on purpose. i always tot tat doin tings people tink you wun/cant do is sth great. rebellious.
immature. childish. watever.
tis is how i used to be.
if onli we hadnt met under those circumstances..
maybe our fate would be different
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Sunday, November 04, 2007
我懷念的 - 孫燕姿
我問為什麼 那女孩傳簡訊給我
而你為什麼 不解釋低著頭沉默
我該相信你很愛我 不願意敷衍我
還是明白你已不想挽回什麼
想問為什麼 我不再是你的快樂
可是為什麼 卻苦笑說我都懂了
自尊常常將人拖著 把愛都走曲折
假裝了解是怕 真相太赤裸裸
狼狽比失去難受
我懷念的是無話不說
我懷念的是一起作夢
我懷念的是爭吵以後
還是想要愛你的衝動
我記得那年生日 也記得那一首歌
記得那片星空 最緊的右手
最暖的胸口 〔誰記得〕 誰忘了
我懷念的是無言感動
我懷念的是絕對熾熱
我懷念的是你很激動 求我原諒抱得我都痛
我記得你在背後 我記得我顫抖著
記得感覺洶湧 最美的煙火
最長的相擁
誰愛的太自由 誰過頭太遠了
誰要走我的心 誰忘了那就是承諾
誰自顧自地走 誰忘了看著我
誰讓愛變沉重 誰忘了要給你溫柔
我懷念的
我還有想要愛你的衝動
我記得那年生日 也記得那一首歌
記得那片星空 最緊的右手
最暖的胸口
我放手 我讓座 假灑脫
誰懂我多麼不捨得
太愛了 所以我 沒有哭 沒有說
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Saturday, November 03, 2007
the pentagram is an old religious symbol. it is a five-pointed star made up of a continuous line tat intersects itself a number of times. when it is drawn with 2 points upwards and 1 point downwards, it's sth completely different. tat's one of the most impt symbols in demonology.
DEMONOLOGY?
yes. the study of evil.
Tchort, more famously known as Satan, uses tis symbol.
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when a pentagram is drawn on the beams over the bed, it is to keep the mare away.
the cravings is a pagan symbol call a mare cross or a devil's star.
yes. the mare, as in night-mare.
'mare' is derived from the indo-Germanic 'mer' which means "death"
or to be more precise, "murder"
life is full of paradoxes
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read the papers abt the 3 British 'bullying'.
it realli got to mi when i watched the video myself.
these people ought to be shot!
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* notice the difference in her when matches start *
