Sometimes, you need to be your own boss. dun go looking for ppl when you're bored. dun ever let others tie a loop ard your neck and walk you like a dog. you dun hae to stay out for the sake of being out. you dun hae to keep yourself so busy to past time. Sometimes, you should juz slow down your pace, relax and look ard you. tink abt nth, take a short nap or maybe a walk round the neighborhood.
yes. i need a slap in the face. maybe i might wake up one dae..
Avoiding it cant solve aniting. bottle up everyting wun make it any better. but at least, it wun be on my mind every now and then. i seem happier now, dun i? i deserved to be happy, who doesnt. it's the heart tat matters.
i believe in fate and destiny. wat's meant to be yours will be yours. no matter how far you try to run from it, it will still follow you.
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went for the first SIM netball training on tues, 18 sept. cheng called mi down as they wanted to form a competitive team for ivp tis yr. the turnout for their 'orientation' was pretty well. We were either previously from a club or are still playing for clubs. We were all made up from Xtremes and the Renegades. WOO~ cool!
the coach, i call her tat as a form of respect, wasnt anyting close to being a coach. someone i didnt see or heard of before. Neither from the rest. But nonetheless, we stayed to train for the rest of the day - it was juz a 2 hours training. nv in my years in netball to hae such a short, unorganized and slack training. luckily, jc and the other seniors were there. if not, the whole training would be more disastrous.
there was no proper warming up or cooling down. Everyone juz gather in their own groups, doin their own stuff. tis is BAD! There wasnt any debrief. i m used to tat havin some team tok after the trainings. so, i sat there wif jia tinkin tat someone will start talking abt the training for that dae but it turned out 'nah, there isnt aniting to tok abt'... the coach was tokin to the committees, while yun was telling us not to register for tis club unless the president (she’d got tis position juz becoz she set up SIM netball - ridiculous) agreed to send us down for ivp. tat's the start of the word battle. and the most absurd ting tat the coach did at that moment was - 'okay, so i leave tis to you all to discuss. see you guys nx week.' BLOODY HELL! wat kind of coach will leave the club to 'discuss on our own'? Irresponsible. and to tink tat she charges the same fees as coach V. i would rather throw my money into the sea den to pay her for her bad 'services'..
and yes, we separated ourselves into the 'YES!' and 'no' for ivp. all the comm voted for a NO! and us, 'the newcomers' - YYYyyYEEeeEESSsSs!!
when comm make tat decision, who were us to make them change?
we started to argue and brush their reasons aside. they called us selfish as we wanted to play juz for glory and fame. but they are selfish to stop their 'green' players from learning. you are not protecting your team mates juz becoz they wun be left out from the club. if you said tat they are ppl who are passionate abt netball then the more they are willing to learn and improve. and not kept in their own shell learning simple passes. if they nv experience matches, they will not know the beauty of tis game. it's not juz abt passing to your team mates, reach the goal shooter and 'yea! 1 point!!' i totally cant understand the stand of the president. i m a cap once, i noe how difficult it is to hae both sides committing for the club. BUT, you need them to support for one another and not disagreeing wat the other says and carry out wat you tink is rite. you can nv grow as a team if there are differing views. and so, our poor yun, cheng and jc fought wif the pres, polly, until they no longer wanna tok. Everyone remained quiet for a moment until jc said, 'okay,thanks for your time.' and polly returned 'no prob and btw, i hate sarcasm.'
We stayed back and yun said 'no matter wat her decision is, we will stil try for ivp. if it didnt go well, we muz stay and prove her wrong.'
the nx dae, gary sent a reply sayin tat the application for ivp tis yr has alr closed. aaahhh! DAMN IT!
and so, i m in a prisoner's dilemma. to go or not to go? should i go and prove polly wrong - tat we joined not becoz of glory. or not to go - to save time and money on more useful stuff. if i follow the rest, i know i wun be enjoying and if i choose to be different, my 'face' will be gone.
why isnt there ani win-win solution?!?!
Unhappiness is self inflicted agony.
