Sunday, July 29, 2007
how nice would it be..
to hae a hot choco drink on a cold, rainy dae.
to slack over at a fren's place, hae some girls tok and pillow fights.
to slp in til late afternoon, with nth to care
i did it all! and it realli IS nice.
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my new work place's fine. the usual kind of ppl you meet. my buddy is ali's sec fren, huishan. zhifeng is gugu's sec fren. eu is juz a floor away. yanru's there too. i NOE everyone there, almost. hahahz. such a coincidence. but stil, i miss my previous colleagues. they are the onli grp of sincere ppl i worked wif. im always skeptical abt the way OL interact wid each other. it's so fake. i dun wanna grow up!
i hae daily work to complete plus to assist my colleagues in those saikang. daily submission is alr more den enuff for mi to do plus the various systems i hae to work on. AH! it's killing mi.. my notes are thicker den any Rowling's books(imkidding, but you get my meaning) the little details, i nv remember. imcareless. and i noe tat well. i tried my best to work on my own. im onli there for 2 daes and you expect mi to noe wat you are doin. tat's ridiculous. you hae been doin tat for 4 months. how the hell will i noe. and i smelled sabotage. dun try aniting funnie, you will not like wat i can do. HA! my buddy wil be leavin wid another temp at the end of tis month, which is tis TUESDAE. wonderful. i m all alone to do all these shit which i hae not finish learnin. and there's not enuff time for mi to hands-on. PLUS(like it's not bad enuff for mi), a new perm will be joinin us on 8th aug and i m responsible to 'guide' her. yes, i will try my very best to teach her watever i can understand from my notes. to make tings worse, everytin's URGENT! i need to fax the diff letters to the rite lawyer, locate files when anione needs them, blahblah blah. sometimes, i realli wanna tell them tis 'eh ppl, i hae my own work to do one leiz.' but i noe it's useless, becoz all of tat are under my 'job scope' too. wat an AWESOME assignment amy got for mi. thanks.
aniwae, good luck to ALINA! she's startin sch tml. be a good ger and listen to your lecturer, alrite? we promised to study hard for our comin yrs. first class honours is CHICKEN FEET! hahahaz.. easier said den done. but nvm, we will try. after we get our timetable, we shall plan on our study daes. and of coz, daes off for our 'entertainments'... hahaz. i cant wait for sch to start.
life's short so juz live it, enjoy it and get over wif it.
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Saturday, July 28, 2007
She did not possess the heart of the one she loved. But she did not care. As long as he was happy, she would be or so she tried to.
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Friday, July 27, 2007
imtired. ijuzwannastaybackstage.
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Sunday, July 22, 2007
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my weekly affair:
tis week was fantastic. ALINA's bdae-19th, JIAYIN's and GRACE's - 21st
went for a jog wid jing at the reservoir on sun. how nice and peaceful. hadnt exercise for god-noes how long. tat tummy! i realli got to do sth abt it.
work was fun. the new intern, Chris from Manila, is pretty humorous. he will take a before-after photo for every meal he had. he is a MEAT lover. there muz be meatmeatmeat on the plate, even breakfast. his stay costs the company more than 7K . he will be staying at Conrads til mid-aug. which means, he got to watch the BEAUTIFUL fireworks from his room. tis is so cool. he brings his cam EVERYWHERE. even to the toilet. we saw a few photos of our company's, airport's, hotel's and shopping malls'.. wonder if he's a .....
aniwae, he's realli nice. veri eager to learn and he's onli 22! omg. wat a great exposure for him. specially flew over to learn abt the new system. how blessed. he's veri interested in learnin chi. he did attend Chinese lesson back there. both the simplified version and the complicated traditional one. often got to give him 'tuition' durin the lunch break. one of my colleagues suggested him to pay mi. HAHA.
CITI won the Best Bank! swept 19 BEST awards. good job, guys. so hard work do pay off. all the late nights and stress. for now, they are buzi plannin for an off site, bbq and treats! hahaz.. boss treated us the previous week and now it's for those who had a pay raise. there will be one every week. sounds good. hope tat i can stay for a longer while. idunwannaleave
thurs nitez was one hell of a fun. we drankeatlauffchat. Asian bar, realli, is a nice place for chill outs. wonder when i can afford tat kind of life. the drinkin session was specially for all the citibankers who had worked so hard to achieve where they are standin now. CONGRATS!! my ppl worked past midnitez, reached homez ard 3 in the mornin and head down to work at 9am. tis was their lives for the past few months.. they realli need a good break. *gif yourself a pat on your back*
dropped by ali's place on fri after work. saw Jamin on my way down. he's stil as TALL but a bit darker now. went to her hse for the preparations for MISS LIM's bdae. jing and ali had started makin the present. i was there to 'help' and FINISH the biscuits. hahahaz.. everyting's done. juz hope tat she will be touched by our efforts and for everyting to go well..
got an official verbal note from boss. i got to leave by the end of the month. tis is soooo ssadd! when i juz got to noe my colleagues better, i hae to leave. aahh. got all of their contacts and photos. hai. it's sad to leave somewhere i had juz adjusted and developed feelings for.
* MeeKey *
* always FUNKY - Linda. Patrick's PA*
* gentle lady - Christina *
* my Supervisor - YenChing *
* Always playful - Michelle *

* the most thoughtful one - Geraldine *
* i dun hae to intro. he's the onli one guy - Chris *
ani good recommendations for a month temp? haven got enuff for my sch fees. plz HELP!
dun juz go thru life,
GROW thru it.
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Saturday, July 21, 2007
当你在穿山越岭的另一边
我在孤独的路上没有尽头
一辈子有多少的来不及
发现已经失去
最重要的东西
恍然大悟早已远去
为何总是在犯错之后
才肯相信错的是自己
他们说这就是人生
试著体会试著忍住眼泪
还是躲不开应该有的情绪
我不会奢求世界停止转动
我知道逃避一点都没有用
只是这段时间里尤其在夜里
还是会想起难忘的事情
我想我的思念是一种病
久久不能痊愈
当你在穿山越岭的另一边
我在孤独的路上没有尽头
时常感觉你在耳后的呼吸
却未曾感觉你在心口的鼻息
汲汲营营
忘记身边的人需要爱和关心
藉口总是拉远了距离
不知不觉无声无息
我们总是在抱怨事与愿违
却不愿意回头看看自己
想想自己到底做了甚黱蠢事情
也许是上帝给我一个试炼
只是这伤口需要花点时间
只是会想念过去的一切
那些人事物会离我远去
而我们终究也会远离
变成回忆
oh 思念是一种病
oh 思念是一种病一种病
多久没有说我爱你
多久没有拥抱你所爱的人
当这个世界不在那黱美好
只有爱可以让他更好
我相信一切都来得及
别管那些纷纷扰扰
别让不开心的事停下了脚步
就怕你不说就怕你不做
别让遗憾继续一切都来得及
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Sunday, July 15, 2007
HELLO ppl!
tis week have been great. tot tat i couldnt be able to survive thru it. BUT i did! and i m so proud of myself. i did not cry. i did not whine, tat much. it was a perfectly normal dae. played pool wid buk, eu and dil. weird combi hur? but it was FUN, rite? wid mi ard, everyting will go well. ahahhaz..
hopped down to starbucks and tried the new Azuki (sth like tat la.. rite joce?) ordered the coffee based but they gave mi the cream one instead. i didnt complain. but they served mi another cup shortli. good service hur!
went thru the stupid ERC or ECR shit. terrible terrible. all my classes start in the noon. terrible. it means tat i got to slp late and get up late. tsktsk. i dun wanna waste my dae away. but i wun wake up early juz to study at homez. aahh.. nth helps. anione hae ME POA POM or STRATEGY mod tat starts in the mornin? let mi noe. thank you.
bought 3 new tops tis week. imsosinned. i should be savin every cent for my high sch fees. but. sometimes, we need to pamper and reward ourselves, rite? hahaz.. i can come up wid all kinds of excuses.
another.. 7 more weeks to the end of my holis. another 7 weeks to freedom. free from work. free from being organized and disciplined. and the start of the 'slackin studies'... to make tings worse, ME is by TINGTING again. alina, plz ask ur exhus to retire. he's going to ruin another yr of mine. why doesnt the feedback from us, the students, show any actions? den why bother to ask for our opinions. BOO! to the sch's systems.
abt work..
the new intern wil be comin in nx week. i got to gif up my com and settle wid an oldold one.
=( imsounhappie. wat to do. i m juz a temp.... i m alr fortunate tat i stil hae my desk, or esle i hae to sit on the floor. nvm. i juz hope tat he wun snatch my work. i dun wanna be jobless. i need the money!!! hahaaz...
the meaning of life is to gif life a meaning.
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Thursday, July 12, 2007
L.O.V.E. Left Behind – 071203.120706
You held mi tight in your arms,
Heart to heart, we beat as one.
Your hugs gave mi comfort,
Your words gave mi strength.
You brought mi out from the darkness
And guided mi towards the light
There wasn’t a day without laughter,
A day without joy.
With you I found myself,
The person I can trust.
Good time flies
Good tings always come to an end, abruptly
You cheated my feelings,
You betrayed my trust.
You knew you hurt mi
But you do nothing about it.
I let you free.
The way you wanted it to be.
The night we bid goodbye,
I saw regrets in your eyes.
But rest assured, you’ll know that that’s better for you.
She ditched you and you cried,
Got yourself dead drunk.
You clubbed like how she loves you to,
You smoked till you could hardly breathe.
I felt for you.
But why should I care,
When you dun ever appreciate.
I lost myself when I lost you that day.
I got to be strong, I got to move on.
I saw how the changes in one’s life affect the others.
I saw how fragile my heart was.
Everything’s over. Everything’s gone.
You gave mi the best birthday present ever—freedom
Thank you for your love.
Thank you for your care.
I know what I need to do thou I still miss you so.
Thank you my frenz who stood by mi,
Giving mi the support and care.
I know I have been difficult
But you never complain
Thank you so much!
I’m getting better day by day.
I will stand strong, I will go on.
No more silly thoughts,
No more stupid messages.
Just mi, my life and you guys.
Happy Anniversary, my dear boi
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Wednesday, July 11, 2007
Are you on pins and needles about an upcoming verdict or decision?
You shouldn't be. It doesn't matter what other people think right now, because ultimately the outcome is up to you, and the way your life changes (if it changes at all) is totally up to you.
You can allow people to voice their opinions about what you are doing, but you do not have to obey them. Now is not the time to hand the steering wheel to someone else.
You are in charge, so flex your muscles -- it will feel good!
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Sunday, July 08, 2007
my daily report.
mon:
nth special. it was work nap eat and slack. finished work early at 7 plus. headed home for dinner and rest. goodnitez.
tues:
went to tamp branch after lunch to zap some docs. it wasnt juz one or two files, it was a big stack of records of 2 companies. BOYCOTT KFC! hahahaz.. they made mi stand for 5 hours to photocopy their docs! and tat wasnt the worst. i took the wrong company cab back. i was supposed to call for one. but, i was lazi to 'plz hold while we connect your call'. got onto a silvercab. it was the uncle's first dae of work. and he asked mi 'where's suntec? how to go?' at tat veri moment, i wanted to carry the bags of docs and take a buz back. 'er.. i tink take the ECP den er.. i tink.. i oso dunnoe la uncle.' and he stil had the cheek to reply tis, 'your first dae takin cab ar?' fuck.
he was a tad too friendli. maybe i was paranoid. but he seemed to be overly curious/concerned abt mi. my sch, my place, my past time, MY LIFE hae nth to do wid you. i was scared and smsed jing. she called and assured tat nth will happen and gave her the plate no. juz in case. til then, i hadnt realize tat i got onto the wrong cab. hahaz.. when i took out the voucher and started filling in, i took a quick look at the license pate and den a second look, SILVERCAB?! omg. i checked my wallet and i onli got a pathetic 6 bucks. called fanatically for help. one of my colleagues came down to foot the bills. i was so embarrassed. so guilty tat they hae to split the cost among themselves. imsorry. iwasstupid. why should i care abt how he questioned mi. i should hae been more cautious abt the cab i took. stupiddumbmi. i promised to call for cabs. no matter how long i hae to 'hold on'. i will wait. everyting ended at 8.
went back to tamp to meet jing. bought some drinks and snacks at Shop n Save. found a quiet spot under the block to discuss for the units to take for yr 2. erc is startin tis wed. i dun hae much to choose but there's a few tat i wan to try but m not sure how it's goin to be beneficial to mi. should i specialize in sth or take a bit of everyting? confusedandlost. i can nv make a decision.
wed:
workworkwork. slackslackslack.
weida called. he was suay, hur. met him for dinner/snack (watever you call as a 'quick bite') finally i hae been to baker'zin. it was well camouflaged by the trees and bushes. ordered some signature dishes. shared tepas. some catch ups. life's been the same for both. focus on our work and studies, okie.
thurs:
slpslpslp den stressstressstress.
i m in charged for the financial reportings nx week. my supervisior will be away for her course. and nobody wanna take over the work. how m i suppose to do. i need to hand in these top60 borrowers to the fin dept. imsodead. practised the system til 10. she chased mi back and told mi not to be so stressed up.. i need to combine the diff docs and come out wid a summary. got to repeat tat for 60 times. how can i relax?
met weida after sch. had dinner near my place. beef hor fun doesnt hae beef. trash talked thru out our dinner. had tat sudden urge to smoke. but.. i cant. i dun wanna pick it up. it's an exp relief. maybe, nx time.
it was a sadsad nitez. he was tired but.. .. ..
sorry and thanks for the company. your words did get into mi. but whether it will defeat my senseless tots, we can onli wait and see.
fri:
stressstressstress.
audit was finally over~ hahaz.. i hae no reasons to rejoice. i did and contributed nth for the audits. but seein the smiles and relieves on their faces brought a smile on mine. cont tryin on the reporting systems and there're always mistakes (there are no small little mistakes. 1 zero makes alot of diff) here and there. got fedup wid myself. how m i goin to survive without her. who will go thru my reports?
ended work by 1130am. prepared for our buffet treat from granny. cabbed down to Princess Terrace in King's hotel. the nonya spread wasnt tat fabulous. but there's my popiah. so it wasnt tat bad. made my own rojak. had laska, otah, ice kacang, fried porridge and blahblah blah. wonder why do we pay 30 plus bucks for such 'common food'?? becoz our granny likes it. aniwae, it was on her. so who cares when there's popiah and freeeee lunch.
maybe i did pay. i got to entertain my regional boss. the 2 of us were sitting on the same table, juz the 2 of us and if tat's not enuff, we were seated face to face. we were sittin at the end of the table and the ones beside us were mingling with the rest of them. aahhh.. i juz took plates and plates of food to 'look buzi'. his PA shouted over and asked if he was bored. 'im eatin' tat was all. hahaz.. sorrie, i dun entertain ang mohs.
met liaoz bee after lunch. walked ard MS and suntec for buk's present. he was so outdated. bought mi to minitoons and action city. he tot tat girls like those 'cutey&girlish' stuffs like the sweet dispenser! omg! they arnt cute. they are LAME~ wonder if he realli buys those tings for a ger. aniwae, i bought a superman tee for buk. hahaz.. i noe it's lame too. but it's tons better den a sweet or water dispenser, rite. joc joined us at the arcade. a great place to throw my hard earned $$. but it was fun! my shootin skills are rusty. i need some polishin, anione's interested?
drove down to meet leong at MP. played pool. had dinner/supper and headed homez.
070707:
GO GREEN! gave tuitions to my kids. got a call from allen at 8 and headed down to esplanade to meet joc. slack at starbucks,trash talked while waiting for gugu to finish his duty. allen and joce realli are a couple made from hell. =P cabbed down to desker rd to meet vick for dim sum dinner/supper. they dun serve popiah. =( but siew mai and prawn rolls do it as well. the men were buzi with their stories while joc and mi juz sat there listenin. almost fallin aslp, hur? they finally sensed our tiredness/boredom and decided to head homez for a rest. GO GREEN!
sun:
todae was spent slpin lazin eatin and tinkin.
wat to choose?! POM and POA is a must. managerial maths? mangerial econs? strategy? law of biz org? corp finance? managerial acc? HRM? hahahaz.. i dunnoe..
你说的话 我不明白
你的谎言 我听的太多
你的离开 我默默的承受
我的决定 还不能接受
你静静的哭泣 我也只能道歉离异
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Sunday, July 01, 2007
sat:
NDP preliminary preview. i wun sae tat it was bad. but it wasnt wat i had expected it to be..
* there's a new star arisin, out of the stormy sea..*
*it was packed wif ppl and hot like hell*
*can you spot the 5 parachuters?*
*perfect landin despite the strong wind. my salutes.*


*untidy march in but wid those uniforms, it still looks great. SMART*
there wasnt ani FIREWORKS! onli some pathetic sparks and bursts of fire (i took them down) slept durin the performances.. okie. one ting tat was nice--the music. it was soothing~ enuff to make mi fall aslp. or was it becoz tat i was tired? i dunnoe. but no matter wat, i SLEPT. gugu told mi beforehand to expect some cock ups. but i didnt expect them to rehearse in singlets and slippers. hahahaz.. and there wasnt ani commentators. how de hell am i suppose to noe wat they were performin? the dance. the acts. the... wat do you call tat?
Ladies and gentlemen, please rise to welcome our Prime Minister, Mr Lee Hsien Loong, simulate.
.............................................. Senior Mentor, Mr Lee Kuan Yew, simulate.
they were dressed in white. walked down the aisle, wavin to the ppl. some were tryin to hide their embarrassment. while our Mr PM, simulate, was confident and waved to all our ppl.
S.R.Nathan, simulate, arrived shortli after the march in parade. the real one had to grace the last soccer match at our National stadium. i should hae gone for the ball den the 'nowhere-to-be-seen' sparks. ARGH!


*politics realli make one frets. look how much he hae shrunk.*
*sang our natonal anthem wid pride =)*
*and.. the finale~*
* the three enthu fools*

gugu told mi tat they will end the show wif fireworks. beautiful ones. when it was almost over, i took out my fone and got ready. mani ppl started to leave. and i tot they were so silly. they rather be the first few to chow and miss watchin the 'oh-so-beautiful' and magnificent fireworks. hahahahaz.. and guess wat? I WAS THE FOOLISH ONE. there wasnt ani fireworks. HAH! there was nth. hai. it was such a disappointment. to tink tat i gave up my precious slp to be there to watch the fireworks... ouch.
we went ard MS for my slippers. nth caught my eye. went for dinner wif jing and kit. met up wid gugu, allen and liaoz bee. had beef hor fun at geylang. woo~ delicious. walked over to sims drive for some fruits. DURAINS! my mother always told mi tat we should take some fruits after our meals. =) and we did. allen left early. den the rest of us had some men's talk. chao zhong wanted to come over but.. i tink he was drunk. so it's better tat he not come. finished our durains and headed homez...

in case you dun notice, tis uncle had 6-7 durains on the table and another basketful on the floor.. you dun eat durains tat way do you? even if you haven had them for years (like mi). he finished them all by himself. POWER!
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do you stil remember the little tings tat happened when you're small?

my grandma took care of mi when i was young. my parents went to work and left mi at her place. i was (or maybe still am) a veri rebellious ger. i nv listen, even if you cane mi. so.. i m always locked up in the storeroom and fed forcefully wif chillies. cruel, hur. didnt heard of child protection at tat time. hahahhaz.. tat's all i could remember.. some bits and pieces here and there.
my mother told mi tat i used to sing 1 song veri well.
衣服本来刚刚好, 怎么现在扣不上? 为什么?
and i always sing tat when i m in my father's van. there was once, i was scolded , sort of, by a taxi uncle. maybe it was becoz i kept repeatin the same song over and over again. and you hae to act tat cute voice for 为什么?... hahaz.. young and innocent times.. i m always tat innocent. even now.
how time flies.. i miss my sec sch daes. i miss our after sch activities. i miss the fun we had durin our dnt lessons. the times we piang so hard to finish our folios and work pieces. bball after sch. dinner at his place. late nite loiter. i miss my life. it seems as if everytin juz happened yesterdae. i stil remember them vivdly. the faces. the ppl. the times.. but.. everyting hae changed. i m not in my teens. i m not juz studyin to pass my Os. pain makes mi grow. walking into the life of an adult. studying for a brighter future. working for experience. gaining knowledge and skills for survival. growin up hurts. i hate the way i hae gone thru to grow up.
lookin back.. i wasted mani yrs of my life. didnt study well for my Os. but i stil chose the JC life. last min revsion for my As. and tis time. my cert brought mi to nowhere. tinkin tat it'll finally wake mi up.. it didnt. hai.. i wished tat i can go back time and start everyting all over again. maybe i can make it better..
if you can go back time, wat changes will you make?
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