Wednesday, May 30, 2007

I'm in a veri difficult situation.

stupid ROY! i've got a veri long story abt him.. bloody shit.

he called mi in the mornin, sayin tat there's an openin for a recept job at Loyang industrial park (Kristile Buildin). asked if i was interested and i said ya. he told tis job to jing yeste. so i tot maybe she's not selected so he came to look for mi. but i've alr agreed for an interview later in the afternoon, it was arranged yeste. aahh. i m confused. nvm. i tot tat his offer could be a backup if todae's interview failed. he called mi in the afternoon and said tat i was selected. i was STUNNED! asked mi to go over to sign the contract. but... i wanna go for tat interview. so i turned him down. he asked mi why. why did i accepted his offer when i am goin down for another interview. told him tat i wasnt confirmed tat his job will be available for mi. tat's why i didnt reject the interview. den he said tat, 'ok. SO you're now selected for the job. so can you come over now?' i told him i was more interested for the job later. he was pissed off. replied okie, bye. and hang up. AARGh! the nx ting i noe, he called jing. and sae tat he stil hae tat job for her. asked if she's available to go over to sign the contract. jing agreed but he said tat he will get back to her. WTH, so is it a YES or NO? so jing turned down the offer from amy. tinkin tat roy's offer was for real. (btw, we were at international plaza) so we took a train back to tamp to meet roy. jing called him when we were almost reachin, juz in case. cant reached him. after a few tries, he picked up and said tat the company doesnt wan jing anymore. WAH LAO! wat's he tryin to do. nvm. tot tat tat's the end of it. i quickli called amy and asked her if jing can stil take up the offer she have for her juz now. luckily, there's stil vacancies. she had arranged another interview for mi too. =) tat wasnt all. roy called back after a few mins. told jing tat the loyang firm wanna to hire her. AH~ TOO BAD! she's got a job. PISSED OFF man. HAHAHAHAZ..look who's got the last lauff?!

okie. so tat's abt him.

i m in a dilemma. i went for an interview in the afternoon todae. and they hae yet to confirm wid mi. i hae another on fri. the pay, the environment and the company is much much better. i hoped tat the ppl from dairy farm will reject mi and be offered to work at citibank. HOPEFULLI! hahaz.. i dunoe how turn down an offer. i m sooOo greedy. tat's how i landed myself in such a stupid situation... haahahahhaahhaz.. IWANNAWORK~

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Tuesday, May 29, 2007

i m so buzi hunting for a job...

i m stil jobless. who wanna hire mi? hahhaaz.. sent my CV to mani of those job agencies to help keep a lookout for mi. went for a few interviews but i dun tink i m suitable for them. they put the position as 'event promoter' but actualli they are those sellin charity vouchers, scam companies tat plan to con tourists blahblah.. noNOnoNO.. got an offer from a call centre. the pay is wonderful.. too wonderful. i noe how demandin it is. i dunnoe how to handle complains from customers. and so i need to learn, rite? hahahaz.. but i juz dun wanna get unreasonable scoldings from someone i dun even noe or will nv meet in tis lifetime.. i wanna learn abt sales, marketin, HR and accountin.. all these more useful stuff. i need to build up my character too. need to open up and be more interactive. =) i m learnin... can anione offer mi sth to work now?

went for a 1 dae temp assignment at Loyang industrial park todae. it was.. okie. quite tirin thou. we had to go thru the system of the airplanes'.. check if the wordings and pictures all tally. kept lookin up to the screen den down on the papers, made mi felt so giddy.. tirin~ fell aslp a few times but i did finish my assigned work. =P den i met up wid my mother at tamps for dinner at cartel. met her supervisor and it's on him! so nice of him. hahaz.. saved on tis and we can go cartel again, the nx time.. hahaaz..

these few daes, didnt slp much.. onli slpt for 4 to 5 hrs everydae. tat's good enuff. coz i need to spend my time wiseli.. tat's to enjoy my holis~ WOO!

one of the interviews:

joc: my dream is to open a cafe tat sells coffee and related stuff.
him: den how abt you, yingying?
mi: er.. i dun hae one. (actualli, i wanna be a zoo keeper. =X)
him: AH! i tink you dun hae enuff slp. tat's why you dun hae enuff time to dream.

HAHAHAZ.. thanks ar. =)

wat does it takes to love someone? a sincere heart?

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Monday, May 28, 2007

My love，晚安就别再为难
别管我会受伤
想开体谅我已经习惯不然又能怎样？

这个城市太会说谎
爱情只是昂贵的櫥窗
沿路华丽灿烂
陈列甜美幻象
谁当真谁就上当

竟然以为你会不一样
但凭什么你要不一样
因为寂寞太冷
虚构出的温暖
沒理由能撑到天亮

前进转弯我跌跌撞撞
在这迷宫打转
死心失望会比较简单
却又心有不甘

这个城市太会伪装
爱情就像霓虹灯一样
谁离开之后
却把灯忘了关
让梦作得太辉煌

以为能够留你在身旁
但是谁肯留在谁身旁
一首情歌都比一个亲吻更长
这就叫做好聚好散

别说你对我感到愧疚
别说你会永远想念我
我很知道孤单这条路怎么走
请你不要安慰我

My love，晚安别放在心上

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Sunday, May 27, 2007

fri:

went to suntec wid jing and joel for dinner. he wanted to gif us a treat and mi, being MI, wouldnt mind. hahahaz.. who will? okie, aniwae, we went to Siam kitchen for their buffet. we ordered quite a num of rounds.the food wasnt.. tat bad la. but it wasnt fantastic enuff to make mi wanna go back there again.. hahaaz..

sat:

went over to my cousin place. met up wid my darlin at pasir ris. took a train down to bugis. went to look for a bdae cake for our bdae boys and ger. finally decided on the choco exotic from 4 leaf. walked over to the steamboat shop opened by jac's parents. and we waited there for the rest to reach. 04S19's spirit nv change. nobody was earlier. we set the time at 9 but most of them were still somewhere elsewhere. vickie's the best! he was stil at homez. hhahaz..

ate alot of good food.. my fave luncheon meat!! hahaz.. meat balls. pig's liver.. and brinjals =P lalalalaz... ps tat i ordered far too much. wasted =X the cake was nice. realli chocolaty-li nice. hahahaz.. den hf and ah tat left for movie. the rest of us went to bowl at safra tamp. played table soccer while waitin for free lanes, finished a rd den we went up to the billiard room.. i wanna train and plae better, better den now. =)

went to gugu's hse to plae the new game he bought. Wii! it's so cute!! hahaaz.. there's mani mani variety of games to choose from. tennis, baseball, drummin... blahblahblah. if.. IF i realli hae 1 at homez, i dun tink i will leave my hse. hahaahz..

i requested. yes, i wan to, go homez early. dun wan it to happen again. but still, it did. my father, knowin tat i wil be goin homez, locked tat bloody door AGAIN. had to wake my mother up to open the door for mi. 'greeted' each other for abt 5 mins den she went back to her room and slammed it hard behind her. *SAD* i didnt mean to wake her up. i noe she's tired. i didnt wanna disturb her. my father came back at 3. mi 5. we always woke her up. hai. im sorrie. but i dunnoe how to tell you. he did it on purpose. i tink it's better tat i stay out den to wake you up.

they hae stopped tokin. so i m supposed to be their middleman again. she called mi to call him to tell him tat i am goin homez for dinner when he juz left our hse to buy her dinner. why cant she tell him when he's at homez. he asked mi abt wat she wrote on a piece of paper tat he needs to bring down for their fren. why cant you ask her urself when she's juz beside mi?

when i dun pick up ur calls, i got scolded. when i call back and sae tat i'll be homez late, you stil lock the door. so why should i answer ur calls? i dun see the need.

sth bad happened. sth.. bad. hai. so down on luck these few daes.

i need to work. i wanna work. i need money. i wanna earn money.

i fell down not once but too mani a time to count. did i realli got up or i juz dragged myself thru?

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Saturday, May 26, 2007

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tis will be a super duper long post..

woke up early on thurs mornin. went back to dunman to meet miss kwek to get my.. prize. hahahaz.. met up wid weida and his colleagues for lunch.. walked past mr teo and sum, wanted to stop for a chat since he was my form teacher plus netball incharge but stil i felt weird.. not 'shu' wid him.. nvm =X was sittin in the canteen, listenin to the 'stories' tat happened in sch, teachers tat mani others 'like'.. blahblah.. guys can realli gossip, juz like a normal ger.. wahahahz! pei weida to finish his 'desserts' outside sch. tat was the longest lunch break he had, or so he said.

walked over to my cousin place to help in her chi. O levels' chi is comin nx week and.. she's in deep shit. realli need alot of practise. DES, dun be so lazi okie!

met up wid jing, joce and jia to look for HL's present, again. stil couldnt decide on wat to get for her. wanted to buy sth tat she cant pick on, sth... WHITE! finally, we got her a BAG! a white one. big enuff for sch use but not too big for causal shoppin.. hahahz.. went to search for a bdae cake! found Jack's place sellin a oreo cheese cake in the rite size for the 7 of us. and it's cheesy plus chocolatey!!

*nice hur?*

denise joined in. had a quick dinner at Mac and bought the Shrek's ear for HL ( we're helpin her to 积德) the money Mac collected from the sales will be donated to the children's charity. walked over to Kbox ( we'd reserved a room the dae b4) and tat was the start of our craziness...

*tat's our room num! K36~*

hl and ali came at 9. we sang her the bdae song.

*cutest bdae ger~ juz for tat nitez*

*she wished for... *

*blew the candles*

*cut the cake*

cake givin ceremony:

*wished tat denise will get prettier dae by dae*

*wished tat ali will get thru to the 2nd yr*

*wished jia to be 'less blur'*

*joce to find her true love*

*jing to find her rich turtle*

*and mi? a happie and simple life!!*

we SANG, SCREAMED and SHOUTED at the top of our lungs! it felt so good tat EXAMS WERE ALL OVER!!

we went crazy tat nitez, or was it juz the few of us? ali and nise juz finished their papers in the afternoon. but stil, it was a fun filled nitez-mornin. went off at 3am. walked over to the esplanade. sat outside of a cafe. no, it wasnt opened. we sat there becoz we got tired of walkin and they didnt chain up the chairs and tables outside of their cafe. it was hothothothto there.

jia: '我懂有一个地方应该还没关!'

so we walked back to raffles city shoppin centre, hopin tat wat she said was true.

we looked happie after all tat walk hur? actualli... it realli was. jia's foot was blistered and bleedin. we walked like we owned the road tat nitez.. jia always got her info wrong. the coffee place she tot 'should stil be opened' wasnt. so we took the chairs from cartel, formed our own circle and sat there. stonin. waitin. slpin. chattin. juz for 530am to come. got homez at ard 6 and BOMP! i went to slp.

sorrie tat i got homez late. didnt mean to wake you up to open the the door for mi.

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Thursday, May 24, 2007

am i goin to lose my bet.. again? AC scored their second at 83 mins. sian.

Liverpool caught up-scored back! jia you!!

BUT.. it was all too late..

i LOST!

*read in a solemn tone plz*
can everyone who read tis gif mi some of their luck and pray tat i will win back my sotong sticks one dae. thank you.

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AC SCORED!

XUE-DEI!

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went to raffles city wid joce and jing to get HL's bdae present.. and.. we got her a.. it's a SECRET!

had a chat wid the 'whiz kid' at nitez.. complaining abt work-his damn-lazi colleague. hmm.. was quite shocked tat he called mi out for a chat.. aniwae, i will be veri veri bored at homez.. so ask mi out more often, hao ma? (like NOW!!)

missed the finals between AC and Liverpool. it's showin rite now! but it's okie,i onli hope tat i'll win my bet tis time round. i dun wanna be tis suay. haven win ani of my bets yet. so plz, Liverpool you muz prove tat i m not tat suay okie!! =)

todae is miss SIM HUI LING's twentieth birthdae!

HAPPIE BIRTHDAE HUILING!!

we hae prepared a veri veri veri BIG surprise for her tml. so dun feel sian yet, okie.

btw, i m broke! finally.. after 3 months of bummin and studyin.. i hae spent almost everyting tat i saved durin the past few months on FOOD and even more FOOD! gettin back my appetite, my self and my life.. i can stand up strong AGAIN! no man can hold mi back... wahahahahz..

everyting tat happened, happened for a reason. you can either learn from it or get drowned by it. i will learn to hold on to tings tat are worthwhile and let go when i noe it's 'time to sae goodbye' ... lalalaz....

often not, i get affected veri much by songs or tings tat relate to my past. some tings juz cant be controlled. when one feels down, juz cry it out. hiding or running away will onli hurt one more. let the emotions show and be true to urself and the ppl ard you. coz they care and you care abt them too. thank you ppl. thank you.. FRENZ!

如果没有你我会怎么过?

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Wednesday, May 23, 2007

mjmjmjmjmjmjmjmjmj....

after tat cant-be-bother-to -noe-wat-i-hae-written-is-rite-or-wrong Ibm paper, we went for... DINNER! hahaaz.. at bedok interchange.. went over to dill's hse, AGAIN, for our mj session.. den we shifted over to hl's place at ard 1am. played the nitez thru without worrying abt the exams.. woo~

tat sickening period of muggin is FINALLY OVER!! no more starin at the notes, no more dozin off in the library and mostli imptli, i dun hae to tink abt 'eh, tml go where study hur?'

realli got to thanks eu and KC!! if not, i wun be studyin tat hard everydae.. and i got to thank the mgt of TP for 'allowin' us to use their sch premises without permission. =X their western in sch of design ROCKS!

there'll be a line up of activities for the post exam period.. wahahahaz..! before the results are out in sept, let's enjoy ourselves realli hard and P.A.R.T.Y.

想见但不能见的痛苦谁能了?

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Monday, May 21, 2007

If I were blue, would you be there for me,

And whisper in my ears instead.

Would you stand by me,

let me hold you tight,

And say you love me one more time.

If I'm away,

would you still think of me,

And wish that you could call me now.

Would you die for me,

would you run with me,

And never look back..

Would you be there to love, to be with me?

Would you swear that your love is always true?

Would you say that you'll always be the one,to take my breath away?
Would you be there to love, to be with me?

Would you swear that your love is always true?

Would you say that you'll always be the one,to take my breath away?

Would you be there..

no.. you'll nv appear in front of mi ever again. you'll nv... be there...

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Sunday, May 20, 2007

i juz cant get the rite mood to study for ibm.

everytime i flipped the notes, nth can realli get into my head. i dunnoe why. where's my 'mood' for tis last paper? disgusted by my lacklustre attitude.

i am onli tinkin abt wat i can do durin the long holi break.. i noe i will sureli regret it when the results are out. will start blamin myself for retainin a yr, wastin the time and money. all becoz i wasnt serious and hardworking enuff. lalala... i juz doesnt learn.. hai.

tat was the last nitez i cried for us. subsequently, i cried becoz of you.

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Friday, May 18, 2007

met up wid eu, dill and hl yeste. went for dinner at Chompchomp. ordered alot of good food. hahaz. i called them 'good' becoz they were all my faves! but popiah wasnt there. hai.nvm... hahahzz...

after tat, went over to dill's hse to plae ...MAHJONG!!

i didnt insist on playin. =X but, i wouldnt mind playin! anytime, anywhere okie?

and her bedroom's BIG! wif a queen or izzit a king sized bed. tv. dressin table. wardrobe. er..

played 2 rounds of 'fengs'. ended at ard 3. went homez wif a BIG smile on my face. coz i hae extra $8 to spare. i m goin to 'work' hard for my course fee for nx yr! yeah!!

*the 'GOOD' food i was tokin abt*

*tat's wat frenz are for*

*STUDY*

*look realli as thou she's studyin, rite? =X*

*IBM's the LAST lap!!*

JIAYOU ba da jia!

ur actions made a deep cut in my heart

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Wednesday, May 16, 2007

there's a printin error in yeste's socio paper. hahaz.. guess section C will be taken out. now, there'll be a higher chance tat i'll pass socio. i juz wan a pass, nth less..

went to hae a small celebration yeste wif my frenz at cartel, Raffles city. had a hearty dinner, full of laughter and joy. felt like exams were realli over. hahahaz... 5 more daes to freedom!!

but for the time bein, need to push for IBM. another brain-cells consuming paper. JIAYOU people!!

*we ate til we 'died'*

it wasnt easy to finish up everyting tat we ordered. but we stil did, forcefully? hahaz.. thanks jiayin, joce, hl and jing for clearing the leftovers. hahahaz.. full and contented. so KBOX nx week? when will my MJ come?

i need to look for a high payin job to finance my expenditure. hahaz.. higher tax for a larger pool of govt funds. where's my GST rebate?! where's my $200? i need the keys to my letter box NOW!

the little tings you tried to hide gave urself away

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i m BORED!

maths and socio were all over~ didnt do well enuff, for both papers.
actualli, it was becoz of my laziness. realli gave up on socio, a paper tat nobody can understand. the questions tat came out for org was WTH? nobody noes how it was supposed to be answered. MELVIN DOESNT SO HOW COULD I? rite? hahaz.. did try my best.. i stayed in for the whole 3 hours. so.. i realli try..

okie.. so we are all left wif IBM..

freedom is sooo bloody near. realli cant wait. hae been tinkin abt the tings we can do after the papers...

lalala

i wanna PLAE MJ!!

where's my KAKI-S?!!?

i tink i noe but i juz cant control.

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Friday, May 11, 2007

updates abt my battle situation...

econs and stats were OVER.

econ: NOT SO BAD! it was simpler den prelim's. the short questions were all do-able. but macro's long Qns realli sucks. i dunnoe wth they were askin abt. hahaaz.. so.. i assumed everyting on my own and interpreted them my way. lalalaz.. better den leavin it blank..

stats: SURE GONE! hahaz.. i didnt practise enuff. i noe, but time's not on my side. stil had to go for it. tried my best. forgotten abt time-checkin and was way overtime. left the last 30 mins for section B. 2 25marks Qns and i used 30 mins to finished them. PRO? wahahahaz..

left wid maths tis mon, socio on tues and finally ibm the followin tues. and tat will be the end of my ordeal... 22nd MAY! it will be the dae for the start of my new life!

AND.. our chief invigilator was a Singh. okie, i m not bein racist here but.. he's realli..
his monotonous way of instructin plus the heavy downpour and his heavy accent in the great big hall, who the hell will be able to hear wat he was tryin to sae?
the onli statement tat was clear to mi:

" All candidates, please place ur bag under ur chair. When i sae a chair, i mean a chair. a table is a table. a chair is a chair. so put ur bag under ur chair, not under ur table, not by ur table or chair, but under ur chair."

chim hur? he repeated tat several times, tat was why i remembered it so well..

爱是什么时后悄悄的散了?

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