Green Green Grass of Home

it has stopped rainin now.. the sky's reddish purple. the ground's wet. my mood sunk. alone in my room wif sad music playin from my com.. wat a perfect atmosphere to grieve.. tink abt my past.. lookin back, i hae been studyin for almost 15 yrs, includin the playtime in kinder garden.. hmm.. we grow up, we change but wat did we actualli turn into? someone who is polite, courtesy, well mannered, blahblah blah, juz like wat we learnt durin those CME lessons. hmm.. realli?

we make new frenz, we lose old ones. we always and onli gain experience thru our own mistakes. why muz we lose sth b4 we gain others? maybe i m wrong to show my displeasure too blatantly to the ppl i dun like. i m rude to ignore you. didnt spare much thought for you. i noe wat it's like to be down at the bottom wif no one standin by you. i hae gone thru tat and i noe it's horrible. it isnt easy to gain acceptance from every tom dick and harry in the world. but at least, we all try to present ourselves the way others wish to see. being ME, i m stubborn, straight forward (too straight forward) and hae veri low tolerance level to irritants. but when i m I, i m the happie go lucky kind who likes to plae jokes on others. either way, i wasnt perfect. i noe my way of 'entertaining' isnt ethical. i will try to change. BUT i will nv force myself to accept someone who hurt ppl the way they wouldnt wish others would on them. i wanted to make tat clear, but im juz lack of courage.. hopin tat 'hintin' will work. tink it worked against mi instead.

it's not fun havin stabbed at the back.

blabber jabber @
10:13 PM

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