Monday, April 30, 2007
LALALALAZ...
the episode was shown todae. hahaz.. was realli lookin forward to it. er.. overall, it wasnt as bad as i tot it would be. tot i would look FAT on screen. afraid tat i might hunched. the part where i got mixed up and didnt present it smoothli.. blahblah blah.. luckily, it wasnt tat obvious hur.
so, there's nth much for mi to look upon. i m left onli wif the final exams. the one tat will determine wat nx yr will be like for mi. hahaz.. and i m veri veri veri unprepared for it. juz get frustrated when i corked up on simple Qns. CMI!! i realli CMI!! aaahhh... help! why didnt anione invent sth tat can brighten up students. one tat can help students to tink, analyse and solve Qns. hahaz..
i m juz plain lazi~
nitez realli get so lonely and it's realli so difficult to get to slp. juz needed someone to tok to. thank you all, for all tat accompanied mi. =) i will get it out of my mind. learnin and tryin. i noe i should concentrate on studies. and so i will need LOTS OF SLEEP! so.. plz let mi slp. guess i m realli havin slpin disorder.. hai. my life will nv be rite. it's always to de left........to de left... you're irreplaceable.
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Saturday, April 28, 2007
It's nice to be homez alone!
it's the first time i appreciated the quietness of my homez. didnt noe tat being alone sometimes doesnt always lead to loneliness or boredom. rather it is a good time to juz take a break from studies and slp in til late afternoon. =X read the papers tat i had accumulated for weeks.. there has been lots of cases on rape and murders, pranks tat got out of hands.. blahblah blah.. wat has the world becomin to? teenagers nowadays are curious abt their sexuality, tryin out on new tings, seekin thrills and excitements. lalala..
read an article abt kindness. a word tat is slowli losin the meanin in tis world. bein nice to someone will make ur dae. but is it realli the way we should feel after helpin another. tat i did a great deed and so i should feel happie abt it and m realli proud of myself to be kind to another? it may be cliche to sae tat it's more blessed to lose den to receive. to gif den to take. but its realli is the way to make tis world a better place. a more compromising and happie utopia.
there are times when someone is realli nice to you, and you will tink tat maybe tat someone has a hidden motive or has some mental disorder.. we usually dun trust anione, yes even ur best frenz, totalli. we will always try to interpret why someone did tis or sae sth like tat. there's always suspicious tots goin thru our minds. so, tat's wat the society taught us? to be cautious towards everyone. den when will we ever hae a real 'kind' movement tat realli came from the bottom of our hearts, when nobody will totalli appreciate wat you did. hai. my world is in a total mess.
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The Real MI
You are a very serious person. You tend to be quiet and well behaved, and you don't have a great deal of self-confidence. You prefer to be alone rather than with friends and that could make you a little less interesting to certain types of guys. You are very attractive in an individual kind of way, and this means it can take people a little while to get to like you.
You don't really care about other people's feelings. You do things the way you want and usually think only about yourself. You are easy-going and love to have fun, but you can be irresponsible as well. You are not keen on serious discussions because they can make you remember that life isn't always about parties.
You strictly follow rules, and you expect other people to be the same as well. People can get tired of you easily, as you can make them feel a little guilty about themselves. You always make decisions on your own, and can be dismissive of other people's advice. You like to be the leader in groups, but can forget to be concerned about the people you are with.
Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?
Your boyfriend thinks that you are a real doll but this is not a totally positive thing. Sometimes you can be a bit too sweet, and come across as being helpless. If you're like this too frequently, your boyfriend and other people are likely to get tired of you having to rely on them all the time.
OMG! m i such an irresponsible person? onli cares abt fun? the blue and pink para often contradict each other. wonder how true the test is... hmmm
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Get to know yourself better
Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.
Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.
i m damn bored again. allen and gugu went to smoke shisha.. weird ar.. didnt join them.hahaz. met eugene to get the notes but i juz dun wanna be homez on a fri nitez. so we went to hae supper.. drove ard geylang searchin for the 'famous' xiao long bao KC tok abt. hahahaz.. in the end, we didnt buy tat. bought char siew bao and donut instead..hahahaz.. i'm so bored!! hae been studyin everydae.. weekends' here and i wanna go out!! out to plae, to la kopi, to.. be outside.. wid no notes. no SG. no ER. hahaz..
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Thursday, April 26, 2007
Joni was the ger who lives next door
i had known her i guess 10 yrs or more
Joni wrote mi a note one dae
and tis was what she had to sae
Jimmy plz sae you'll wait for mi
i'll grow up somedae you see
savin all my kisses juz for you
sign wif love forever true
slowli i read her note once more
then i went over to the hse next door
her teardrops fell like rain tat dae
and i told Joni wat i had to sae
Joni Joni plz dun cry
you'll forget mi by and by
you're juz 15 and i'm 22
and Joni i juz cant wait for you
soon i left our little hometown
got mi a job and i tried to settle down
but these words kept haunting my memory
the words tat Joni said to mi
Jimmy plz sae you will wait for mi
i'll grow up somedae you see
savin all my kisses juz for you
sign wif love forever true
i packed my clothes and i called a plane
i had to see Joni
i had to explain
how my heart was filled wif her memory
and ask my Joni if she marry mi
i ran all the way to her hse nx door
but tings werent like they were before
Jimmy Jimmy plz dun cry
you'll forget mi by and by
it's been 5 yrs since you've been gone
Jimmy, i married your best fren John
how ironic.. ppl tend to realise the tings or ppl they should cherish when they were all gone. it's always too late.. we nv learn from others' mistakes til we encounter them ourselves.
i make a wish.....
AAHHH... study!! i need to STTUUDDYY!! went to tp's lib todae wid jing, eugene and KC. wat a weird combination huh. but nvm.. it wasnt tat bad la. KC shared wif us, lots of his life stories, on the incidents tat happened ard him and blahblah blah.. wow.
communication is more impt den juz havin a conversation..
we need to feel for each other from the bottom of our hearts. so let's start communicating~
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Wednesday, April 25, 2007
it has stopped rainin now.. the sky's reddish purple. the ground's wet. my mood sunk. alone in my room wif sad music playin from my com.. wat a perfect atmosphere to grieve.. tink abt my past.. lookin back, i hae been studyin for almost 15 yrs, includin the playtime in kinder garden.. hmm.. we grow up, we change but wat did we actualli turn into? someone who is polite, courtesy, well mannered, blahblah blah, juz like wat we learnt durin those CME lessons. hmm.. realli?
we make new frenz, we lose old ones. we always and onli gain experience thru our own mistakes. why muz we lose sth b4 we gain others? maybe i m wrong to show my displeasure too blatantly to the ppl i dun like. i m rude to ignore you. didnt spare much thought for you. i noe wat it's like to be down at the bottom wif no one standin by you. i hae gone thru tat and i noe it's horrible. it isnt easy to gain acceptance from every tom dick and harry in the world. but at least, we all try to present ourselves the way others wish to see. being ME, i m stubborn, straight forward (too straight forward) and hae veri low tolerance level to irritants. but when i m I, i m the happie go lucky kind who likes to plae jokes on others. either way, i wasnt perfect. i noe my way of 'entertaining' isnt ethical. i will try to change. BUT i will nv force myself to accept someone who hurt ppl the way they wouldnt wish others would on them. i wanted to make tat clear, but im juz lack of courage.. hopin tat 'hintin' will work. tink it worked against mi instead.
it's not fun havin stabbed at the back.
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Tuesday, April 24, 2007
HIZ!!!
i hae been studyin for the past few daes.. =) hahaz.. gettin the feel of it now. woo~ i cant stop tinkin abt the dae i'll be free from exams. HAHAZ. it's juz..... a month, no, less den a month away. it sooo near!!!
OH! the episode tat i'm goin to be on, will be aired nx MONDAE! 30th APRIL at 8pm! it's a MUZ WATCH! you can switch on at ard 830pm, if you juz wanna watch mi.. =X hahahaz.. saw the commercial for nx week. heard my voice.. it's sssooo KIDDISH!! wat happened?!!?! i m supposed to be DA MAN! hahaz.. nvm. hope i dun look FAT on screen.. my once ever appearance on tv.. plz, make it nice..
evidence tat i was studyin!! =P
*we discuss and help one another*
*we stil love each other after some arguements*
*we study!!!*
did lots of funnie stuff together. it was fun studyin together becoz we can bitch abt lots of tings face to face. we lauff, we eat, we get irritated and we STUDY! tat's the most impt point. hahaz.. hope wat we tried to get it in, realli goes in.. GOOD LUCK EVERYONE!!
realli cant wait for exams to come.. lalalalala~
i m learnin. learnin to set my life straight. i'll get well.. soon!
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Monday, April 23, 2007
sometimes, i juz run out of tings to tok abt my life. how terrible it was. i'm always complainin. songs realli help to relieve some pain in mi, sometimes.
i'm not the saddest person on earth. maybe one of the few millions in spore. maybe one of the few billions in asia. maybe juz one out of the thousands millions billions zillions trillions in the world. maybe i m considered to be veri lucky to stil be alive. tat i hae the chance to live a life here. wif my family, my frenz. maybe....
stop stressin mi. i noe it has been tough on her, but i m not havin it easy either. can you spare a tot for mi too. i m spendin as little as i can now. i hadnt ask from her even thou i hadnt been workin for months. stop pushin mi. i will work hard to get the best i can. i realli mean it.
i can be strong. i cant breakdown. so stop pressurizing mi. i realli had enuff.
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Saturday, April 21, 2007
人变了心，言而无信；
人断了情，无谓伤心；
我一直聆听，我闭上眼睛，
不敢看你的表情。
满天流星，无穷无尽；
我的眼泪，擦不干净；
所以绝口不提，所以暗自反省，
终于我挣脱了爱情。
把爱剪碎了随风吹向大海，
有许多事让泪水洗过更明白，
天真如我，张开双手以为撑得住未来，
而谁担保爱永远不会染上尘埃。
把爱剪碎了随风吹向大海，
越伤得深，
越明白爱要放得开，
是我不该，
怎么我会眷着你眷成依赖，
让浓情在转眼间变成了伤害。
满天流星，无穷无尽；
我的眼泪，擦不干净；
所以绝口不提，
所以暗自反省，
终于我挣脱了爱情。
把爱剪碎了随风吹向大海，
有许多事让泪水洗过更明白，
天真如我，
张开双手以为撑得住未来，
而谁担保爱永远不会染上尘埃。
把爱剪碎了随风吹向大海，
越伤得深，
越明白爱要放得开，
是我不该，
怎么我会眷着你眷成依赖，
让浓情在转眼间变成了伤害。
我剪不碎旧日的动人情怀，
你看不出来，我的无奈。
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Friday, April 20, 2007
had a rough week. hae been gettin weird smses from him. the prob in my family didnt improve and it's gettin worse. went for socio todae. slipped and fell on my bum when i was walkin down the stairs. wore skirt and there were 2 guys nearby. luckily, i held onto the railings. didnt slided down further. or it would be even more embarrassing. jiayin was so worried. kept askin if i had injured myself. luckily, i didnt sprain my ankles. they were alr veri veri loose. thanks ger. i m fine. wanted to collect my econ paper but it slipped off my mind.and socio's out. so.. i'll collect them nx week den.
i'm in a veri terrible state. again. why do bad tings kept falling onto mi. i realli had enuff. realli tired of deceiving myself tat tml will be better.
you once made mi believe in myself when nobody does. made mi stand on my feet, firm. used to depend on you solely when i was down. im realli grateful for ur presence. but the way we said goodbye realli hurts.
i tried pickin myself up several times.whenever i took a step out, you'll come into the pic, gave mi a slight push and im back to my knees. wth do you wan from mi. i noe you're tryin to show ur concern but tat's not the way. you dun hae to ask how i am every other dae. wishin mi well in studies. tellin mi to hae sufficient rest. dun get too stressed up for exams. hope tat i m fine, tat i m enjoyin my life blahblah.. wat do you wanna hear from mi? everytime, i gave the same cold responses but you still ask abt the same old tings the nx dae. juz tell mi wat you wanna hear.
1. im doin great. haven been more enjoyable.
2.not too bad.
3.ya.fine
4.sorrie. i realli feel so terrible w/o you.
i tried all but not the last one. coz i realli dun feel tat way,now. so wat do you wanna hear. i nv ask abt you becoz i dun wanna noe how well you're doin. i noe you're fine. happily in love. so if you're sincerely showin ur concern, im sorrie to wrong you. if not, i m realli disturbed by the smses. i realli hoped tat we can stil be frenz. hopefulli. i wish you all the best in ur work and life.
if life was to be like a bed of roses.
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Thursday, April 19, 2007
Someone who has been wasting your time needs to be told to move along today! This person has been all talk and no action for some time now -- and you know that empty promises are not going to bring you satisfaction. Don't be afraid to cut losers like this loose from your life. You may fear that you'll have some awkward social situations ahead, but you won't.
Moving on will cause only good things in your life.
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we're lovin it~ not for long we'll sure put on some weight.. i juz cant stop tinkin abt food!! touched a little on decision-makin (chapt 3.1). it will take mi another 10 yrs b4 i finished it. IBM is borin~ and.. econs kill!! hope maths and stats will be the ones i realli can score well on. aaahh... let's pray!
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we eat. we wait. we take buzes. we're always together~ hahaz.. love takin llloonnngg rides.. =)
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i can foresee... troubles comin my way..
why cant i hae a period of peace.
i onli ask for a short break..
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Wednesday, April 18, 2007
| Your Power Color Is Gold |
At Your Highest:
You are engrossed in passions that mentally stimulate you.
At Your Lowest:
You seek thrills and neglect what's important in your life.
In Love:
You see dating as adventure and approach it with an open attitude.
How You're Attractive:
You passion for life makes others passionate about you.
Your Eternal Question:
"Am I Having Fun?" |
but i stil like green and brown.. hahaz.. =)
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| You Have a Phlegmatic Temperament |
Mild mannered and laid back, you take life at a slow pace.
You are very consistent - both in emotions and actions.
You tend to absorb set backs easily. You are cool and collected.
It is difficult to offend you. You can remain composed and unemotional.
You are a great friend and lover. You don't demand much of others.
While you are quiet, you have a subtle wit that your friends know well.
At your worst, you are lazy and unwilling to work at anything.
You often get stuck in a rut, without aspirations or dreams.
You can get too dependent on others, setting yourself up for abandonment. |
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Tuesday, April 17, 2007
| You Are 60% Boyish and 40% Girlish |
You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.
Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.
You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.
You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be. |
HOW TRUE ARE THESE QUIZES? try and believe onli the good stuffs.. =P
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| Your Birthdate: December 4 |
You don't love lightly. For you, love is always a serious undertaking.
However, you are able to love many types of people. You can bring out the best in almost anyone.
Love surprises you often. You never know when or where you'll find it next.
Number of True Loves You'll Have: 2
Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 2
You are most compatible with people born on the 4th, 13th, 22nd, and 31st of the month. |
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Monday, April 16, 2007
i'm recoverin. or so.. i tink. exchanges some smses and i didnt hae much special feelings abt it. yes, i m happie tat at least he stil cares but not tat in the sense of excitement over his 'sudden' concern. hmm.. actualli, i'm not sure wat kind of situation i m in. not sure who he is to mi, who i m to him. are we stil frenz or juz.. someone we do not wanna bring up again? someone who used to be tat special one to mi. dun ever tink tat we can be the same again. less sae to confide in him. how m i suppose to sae everyting out to the person who hurt mi the most, the liar. i do not hate him. i juz cant trust him animore. the lies he used to cover up his dirty ways.. i m realli sick of it. called it 'beautiful lies', 'white lies' or watever.. they are stil lies.. tat's not the way to tell mi if you dun wanna hurt mi. bein dishonest hurts more. you nv understand mi which you tot you did. and i dun tink i understand the 'new' you now. im in love wid the dead.. you hoped tat im fine. hope tat i m stil doin well. i can onli reply tat i hope for tat too, hopefulli. if i tell you tat i m doin damn well, superbly fine and i m enjoyin every min w/o you, i m lying.. but.. at least, i m gettin better. wun brood over the past tat much. can settle down to study for a few hours. able to fall aslp faster and to wake up on time or even better, earlier.. maybe you are not the reason why i hae been losin control of my life. it's mainli due to my lack of discipline. so now, i will buck up and pick myself up from tat awful fall. i tripped on myself and onli i can help myself. i was stupid, foolish and silly. it might be too late to start on my studies but i wil stil try..wish tat i can juz erase off all the stupid stuff i did... i hope i lost my love to someone better. someone who understand you better. hopefulli..
a rs starts wid LUST
cont and maintain wid LUXURIES
end wid LIES
tat's how most rs are built up and maintained. you can sae tat i m pessi but i strongli feel so.. maybe i might change my mind in the future. maybe.. or may not..
i juz wanna lead a simple life. a steady shoulder to lean on durin the buz ride. a listenin ear when i m down. someone to hold on when i m fallin. it looks simple..... it's juz too simple to happen in tis complicated world.
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Sunday, April 15, 2007
we did some stupid tings on fri. hahaz.. a lady came up to us to promote the 'new' type of red bull drink. she gave us each a can and we got to finish it b4 lesson starts. but we couldnt. and there's stil alot left. it's too gas-y. we played fist guessin hopin others will finish up for mi. hahaz.. but in the end, i drank the most! we ended up missin the first half of the lecture. luckily, it was maths. =X
sat:
woke up in the afternoon, tinkin wat i am goin to do for tat dae. but nth came to mind. went online. allen was bored too. gugu suggested to go down to ecp for a drink. hmm.. okie. frequent there a num of times le. but it's stil better den rottin at homez. sat at coffee bean, enjoyin the cakes and drinks. hmm.. i regreted orderin tiramisu. it wasnt wat i expected.. den liaoz bee and gang came. we shifted to the pub nx door. they hae an aircon-ed lounge where we can plae games and watch matches on tv. IT WAS showin ARSENAL VS BOLTON!! and ARSENAL WON!! wahahahaz.. they haven been performin lately. cant even remember when was the last time they won.. =X but.. nvm. they won tat nitez! we played BIG2, scrabble, SNAP, old maid, LEGOS and donkey. monopoly was taken by another table of ppl. =( drank quite alot, coz i kept losin. but i m a good drinker.. (ya, rite) hahaz.. left the place and headed to marine parade. played pool and i finalli won the guys wif the last game.
*how serious*
*when they were actualli.. try figurin wat they placed*
*buildin.constructin.instructin*
*Allen's actualli a veri macho guy. believe mi. puiwei givin the diao~ look*
hmm.. guess everyone hae their own probs. juz hope tat every min we spent together will help in reducin the 'unhappie' side of their memories. stay strong!!
sun:
woke up to find tat my parents werent homez. hmm.. OH YA! it's our turn to acc my grandma. quickli got up, ate my lunch and headed to uncle eddie's hse. no one was there, except ah ma and the maid. the rest of my family went to sao mu. luckily, i brought some stats papers along, juz in case i was too bored. my ah ma and i hae some communication prob. =X coz i m not veri good in hokkien but i can at least reply back in veri veri veri simple hokkien. not too bad le la. stoned til ard 5 when everyone came back. i was saved~ went down wif my cousins to the playgrd. saw some malays? or were they thais? playin sepak tekraw.. the way they kicked the ball was so cool. hahaz.. went homez at ard 9.
to tink or not to tink. i hae been tryin. tryin to study and keepin myself buzi.. keepin myself from tinkin abt you.mi.her.us.him. hmm.. maybe we are juz not meant to be.
i noe i hae started to put down..little by little.. bit by bit.. gettin less affected by ur actions. able to react more naturalli. wif a neutral heart. hope tis will cont and i will be on the road to recovery. or i will nv be to accept the new him. hopefulli.........
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Saturday, April 14, 2007
thurs:
had sch from 10 to 10. nth much happened.
fri:
finished sch at 10 again. everyone left, leavin mi and jing. we walked over to the nearby Mac to have our dinner cum supper. another borin nitez.
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Wednesday, April 11, 2007
你的样子
你的样子少见了...
你的声音少听了...
你的消息少闻了...
你的东西少知了...
我想你了...
好几次逼自己不去想你...可我做不到...
无论你怎样对我 我也无法气你...
无论我做什么东西都会想起你...
想你过的好不好...
有没有吃饱...
做工累不累...
开心吗？？
你知道吗？？
我忘不了你．．．
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爱
爱是什么?
它很美妙,神奇,痛苦!!!
有人说爱情就像切洋葱...
越切越深 就越爱越深...
到后来 什么都得不到...
可是换来的是眼泪...
我知道...
因为我爱过, 伤过, 哭过, 笑过
伤心过, 哭泣过, 失望过, 甜蜜过...
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sat:
i had sch todae!! on a weekend. from 10 to 5.. lecture on ECONS by amos. stressed!! but we chose to sit rite in front of him hopin tat he wun call on us. and he realli didnt!! =)
planned to go out wif gugu at nitez. went to his hse after sch. slack at his place while waitin for the rest to decide on the place and time. watched 'A Walk To Remember'.. another nice touchin show. how nice it would be if a guy is willing to put in so much effort juz to make you smile. an effort so sincere and true. it's not becoz she's dyin, it's not becoz of her rich but simply becoz he loves her.. OoOhHHh~ slept for awhile for the wishy washy guys to reach a decision. but, in the end, cz juz disappeared. he was angry over sth.. (cant tell) he wun reply our sms or pick up our calls, as if he juz vanished into thin air.. nvm. gugu puiwei brought mi out for supper. tried mani new food.. chat a little... joke alot.. had a great time. thanks! =)
*chu chu*
we had a hard time suckin it out. realli a good exercise for ur tongues and lungs. sucked in lots of air. BLURP* we did our best to finish it up.. but.. it was realli tirin. hahaz.. i tink.. 7 is more den enuff for mi..
sun:
had another session wid amos. he's the kind of lecturer who wun feed you wif ani notes or answers. even thou he went through the questions wid us, i stil dun understand. it's not becoz i didnt pay attention. he was juz.. too vague, too fast in his explanations. he like to go 1 big rd juz to ask a simple Q. den after tat big rd of questionin, i already forgotten wat was the first Q he asked. and it was sooo different from how tingting taught. damn luan! now i m veri veri worrie for my econs. dun tink i will even get a 10, when amos onli gave a 50+ for 1, YES juz ONE, student. and the rest failed terribly. i juz hope tat i wun get a singly digit.. AAAHHH!! jia lat.
mon:
no sch todae!! i slacked at homez. realli slacked after the buzi weekend. didnt had any achievement. but to rest early for tues' lec.
tues:
woke up early for econs lec wif tingting. tot it would be a waste of time since his method of answerin is totally in conflict wid amos. but.. it turned out to be a fine one. at least i noe wat he was tryin to tell us. unlike amos. and it was the first ever tat he didnt finish on time. he extended for another 1 hr plus. so unexpected of him! hahaz.. he used to finish on the dot, even if he cant finish for tat dae, he will cont on the nx lec. maybe he felt worried for us too. by the look on his face and the results we got for our prelims. so disappointin and scary ar?
went out for a walk wid weida at nitez. drove to ecp for a stroll.(not by the beach) he bought a burger and a milkshake and we walked along the cyclist path. a couple was bladin beside us for almost 3/4 of our walk. i tink his gf juz learnt bladin. there were quite a num of youngsters cyclin too. i didnt noe singaporeans like to exercise at 12 in the mornin.. hahaz.. he shared his life stories wif mi. didnt noe he had such a.. an 'interestin and fulfilin' life. hmm.. brought mi out to relax and let out the qi in mi.. chatted alot. almost aniting under the sun er.. no i mean the moon.. a funny guy. didnt expect to tell him so much coz we hardli noe each other. a veri easy goin guy who tinks he's bad. NO YOU'RE NOT!! =) sittin there chattin was calmin, wif the songs played at a nearby bar. it did help to cheer mi up some how. his mission was halfway accomplished. found someone who had gone thru wat i m facin, gave some good 'rebellious' advises.. so i wasnt the onli one in the wrong to be defiant.. hope tis phase of my life would pass quickli. no matter wat, we will stil miss the times we had together. juz tink abt the happie memories but dun brood over the sad break-up. althou it's uncontrollable. i will work hard to make up for wat i hae lost. thanks for the long 'enrichin' chat. all the best for our love lives! =) and oh ya, his fone is cool*!! THANK YOU
wed:
tot tat i was havin an afternoon class. i setted my alarm at 1030 when i got homez in the mornin.. but for no reason, i got up at 8am!! checked my timetable and found out tat i actualli had class at 10!! hahaz.. heng ar~ luckily, i got up in time. =)
durin the lec, i kept tinkin abt wat weida told mi. hmm.. life's so unpredictable. love's so irrational. hai...
我真的可以把你当朋友看待吗? 你道地想干吗?
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Tuesday, April 10, 2007
i am hopeless..
i noe i shouldnt be living the way i m now. wasting my time and my life. rottin away. i noe wat i lost is not goin to be replaced. den the more i should pick up and stand strong. shouldnt waste even more. but wat can i do. i noe wat i m doin. i noe it's all rubbish. i noe i noe i noe.. den why am i stil in tis kind of state. hated de way i'm livin. when will i ever regret and wake up. i m sorry to behave the way i m now. the down and good for nth side of mi. i dun wish to disappoint my mother and myself. i worked hard b4 for my sch fees. i shouldnt let them all come to waste. life's tough and i'm doin nth abt it. it's a disgrace to hae someone like mi as a daughter. hai. where's my dignity? my pride? i shouldnt blame you animore. i ruined my own life. not you. you're juz an excuse i came out wif becoz i m tired of maskin up my emotions. it's mi who hae chosen tis path. and i should be the one pickin myself up. noone can help mi except myself.
i'm sentenced to a life-long imprisonment.
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Monday, April 09, 2007
time for.. PHOTOS!!
*mi and jing @yukiyaki*
OH ya! i missed out on last wed. becoz i was too excited abt thurs.. hahaz.. er.. YA. we crashed wed mornin's IBM (coz i cant go for thurs) den the 5 of us (hl was MISSin) went for SAKAE.. didn't ate sushi for almost a decade.. boy am i old..! didnt like the smell and the taste of it. but, for the sake of my frenz and to overcome my 'fear' of pukin after eatin.. i WENT! we went down town to meet denise and alina~ (ALINA.. we were supposed to be dressed up??!!) den jing,jiayin,denise,ali and mi , JUZ THE 5 OF US, had a great time orderin.. i tink we messed up their com system becoz we kept ordering a little of everyting at a go and thanks to our ENORMOUS appetites.. the cravin for tofus, steamed egg..etc
WOO! it was fantastic!! took lots of photos too. oh ohoh.. jiayin stepped on a lump of rice i ACCIDENTALLY dropped.. the sole.. was so disgustin.. it was sticky and white and sticky and STICKY!! plain gross.. she used the wet tissue (supposed to be used on our hands or mouth) on the sole of her shoe. eeekks! AND retribution happened. i stepped on it too~ hahaz.. and the table of us realli had a great time lauffin, amused by our stupid acts. my pleasure! =) after the 'exercise', we went for another rd of food craze.. and i kept eatin.. we were damn bloody full!
okie. i m done wif wed..
fri:
woke up quite late. went over to my cousin hse for tuition. den stayed awhile to watch The Cinderella Story.. so sweet.. how i wish i .. hahaz.. do fairy tales kind of endin realli existin in tis world?? nah.. tat's all bullshit la.. =X on the way homez i met up wid xx.. didnt change much ar.. hahaz.. and tat's tat for fridae.. =)
PHOTOS taken durin the rehearsal on 5th apr!!!
* i was bored durin the long break from 3 to 6*
there's the cameraman,mark,director's backview,erika,xinhuey,blahblahblah...
*my cheerleaders!! and sim yunying~!!*
and our supper.. hahaz.. gugu was the MAN of the dae..
den we went to cchhill..
at the end of the dae.. we all got drunk.. thanks to the pot of tea.. hahaz..
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Saturday, April 07, 2007
HELLO!!
hahaz.. i am stil sooOoo excited.. the aftereffect of the recordin on thurs..
okie.. i shall start to recall everyting from the beginnin of the dae.
woke up early at 8 to prepare the tings needed. reached sch at 10 to meet up wif miss kwek, erika and my bao bei.. carried it to the atrium, called a cab and we headed to mediacorp. reached there at ard 11, a guy came out to bring us to the studio where we will be havin our recording. the other schs were already there. there were Raffles (the sch tat produce rifles) AHS (noe nth but to SCREAM! and they realli SCCREAMMM..) hahaz.. sat at a corner.. waitin for nth to happen. BORED* so we went to the canteen to hae our lunch. it's a normal-lookin canteen wif veri veri reasonable prices. shared a plate of HONEY CHAR SIEW RICE (actualli it's juz a normal plate of char siew rice, not realli tat HONEY-ED) wif erika. there are lots of Tvs there, airin different shows from mani channels. den we went back to the studio and cont our wait.
130pm!!
the stars reached. we were grped wif SIM YUN YING! a veri cute and pettie host. explained the project to her, shared some jokes..lallal.. took photo.. i kept beo-in at XU ZHENG RONG.. so sad tat we werent grped wif him. but yun ying is better!! hahaz.. he's sooo handsome! okie. enuff of that. we went thru one rd of rehearse wif the stars. not a veri bad one.but the questions asked by the director was... SHOCKIN! i juz stood there STUNNED. didnt noe wat and how to answer..but i took them in mind and tried to come out wif good replies. a big THANK YOU for mR. DirecTor. all the schools had to redo and take 2 but we went thru wif juz 1 take. PROUD* hahaz.. that took abt 2 hrs plus..
3pm to 6pm
a break* watched the recordin by the pri sch kids.( the 4th eps) their presentations are so cute. there's the vampire, 'mother', flowers etc.. den i started to get nervous. pulled erika to start our mani rds of rehearsin.. hahaz.. realli repeated tat 30sec scripts for almost a million times.. (actualli, it's onli 1 out of 1000 of tat..) but.. it's realli nerve breakin.. kept shiverin although i wasnt cold.. it seemed like it will take forever for the real recordin to start.. we even practised in front of a big mirror in the toilet..
6pm
went to the make up unit (at a faraway land..) for make up. the ppl there were like s***, damn unfriendli. nobody attended to us when we reached. had to asked ard to see who will be helpin us with the make up. the make up was real fast. finished everyting within 1 min. den they pointed somewhere ( juz anywhere actualli) tat we hae our own hair sponsor. so we walked out tryin to find the 'somewhere', we couldnt, so we went back and asked for directions. they replied tat 'oh, it's juz somewhere near ur studio. you will noe one.' wth.. we were there for the first time. wat a great 'help'.. but nvm.. we walked back to the studio and nv bother to do aniting abt our hair. hahaz.. den we cont wid our rehearsin..
7pm
the supporters came in and took the seats.. it's goin to START!! and i m stil not ready.. i kept messin up the lines.. AHHH!!! they practised their cheers, took a few takes.. den mark lee, jack, and the other stars arrived.. the real recordin starts~ we were the 3rd and last grp to present.. and we practised even more.. erika wif her 'too funnie' actions which made mi lauff and i cant cont my lines after tat.. hahaz.. we practised in front of miss kwek (several times), the cameraman( a few times), yunying(one too mani to count..) hahaz.. the first grp went on. AHS- the scrapper. they invented it to help in removin the price tags or stamps easily and without leavin a mark. den came RGS-donation box. it can separate the different coins into different compartments. AHS students can realli shoot questions. they kept askin STU*** questions and they got back up from zheng rong and jack (coz they were from AHS too) but nvm.. i am prepared! (thanks to the director and cameraman who kept drillin mi wif diff questions..) miss kwek tot and came out with lots of solutions too.. the helpers backstage were complainin abt the 'sch wif many Qs' it was alr past 10. they told us tat we sure gonna win, so why do they even bother to make life difficult for other schs.. (was happie to hear tat at tat moment)
den it's our turn!! waited at the back stage den i heard mark lee said '欢迎德明中... blah bla' den we hugged each other and i said 'AI ZAI!' we went onto the stage and WAH! it was FANTASTIC! chatted wif the MCs, played the VT, presented our project(with no mistakes!!), welcomed yunying in, get comments from the judges, and questions from the student. when the time was opened for the floor, guess which sch started to ask? YYESS you got it rite!! hahaz.. but.. AI ZAI! we hae answers for all ur wu liaoz de questions.. hahaahaz.. after tat we had a short break backstage as they were showin the part on their 'crazy idea'.. den we went back to the stage for the finale. they were goin to gif the scores.. we took the center.. jack-93 (dmn went WOOO!) Xia director-96 (dmn went WOO!!WOO!!) the last guy(didnt remember his name)-88 (dmn went YEAHHH~!)
WE WON!!! 谁是创新王? 我是创新王!!!!!!
shook hands wif the competitors, judges and MC.. dmn gave a 3 cheers for our victory.. =) so great. and i finally had the courage to ask to take a pic wif xu zheng rong.. hahaz.. beautiful ending!
went to had supper wif gugu, jingying, darlin, denise, hl, jiaying at chomp chomp. ordered stingrays, chicken wings, kangkong, desserts and drinks! wat a spread~ after a hard dae's work.. den we went to a nearby pub, Liquid Kitchen, for a chat.. ordered rum mixed wid 7-up. sweet* i like.. hahaz.. den we took photos.. lots of photos tat dae.. gugu drove us back and deng deng~ tat's the end a perfect dae~~!!
THANK YOU my frenz my supporters my life! you rock my world! glad tat i hae all of you to accompany mi thru tis.. =) hope you enjoyed ur nitez too!
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Tuesday, April 03, 2007
*nicely painted doors*
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went back to dmn. took a few photos. the middle one was wif my partner, Erika. a half japanese. how cool yea.. hahaz.. but i m stil worried abt our presentation becoz we hae problem translatin several dnt terms to chinese.. serious prob! hahaz.. didnt realli get to noe her well. hope thurs will go weelll....~
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sat:
gave tuition to my cousin in the afternoon. den met up wid jingying for our sec fren -LIM RUI TING'S- bdae celebration.. there's vanessa, shili, jenny and raymond. had our buffet dinner at yuki yaki @ marina square. hmm.. the food wasnt tat bad. tried some SUSHI-S.. hahaz.. hmm.. stil find the taste werid, but at least i dun tink tat they are smelly animore.. the bbq's not bad.. the squids were good! spicy and chewy.. woo hoo~ tried to bbq the dumplings and egg tofu. but it turned out to be a disaster! so better not try tat if you are goin.. hahaz.. but the 2 hr we had wasnt enuff.. i can eat much more if there's stil time.. =X went to take a stroll along the spore river after the dinner wif jy.. nice scenary.. and yes, we took photos.. plenty of them. wif the baby merlion, outside the court, wid sir stamford.. etc.. hahaz.. after realizin tat it was near midnitez, we rushed to find our way homez.. (cab was the last option!!) we found a buz stop tat hae buz goin towards eunos. and tat saved us from takin cab. took 51 and alighted at city plaza. 21 came shortli and we were on our way homez~ safely..
sun:
i had sch tat dae! wat a joke.. hahaz.. spent my apr fool wid mrs meena~ actualli.. she didnt teach aniting.. she juz let us 'copied' the work. but i DIDNT.. i did my work on my own.. jing finished the questions beforehand so she tried the stats questions.. hardworkin ger ar.. =) hahaz.. went homez for a nap.. had my dinner.. watched some shows.. went online.. den off to slp~ BUT in between.. there were lots of fone calls.. lookin for my parents. damn irritatin.. it's none of my biz. i dunnoe where they were and why they didnt go. stop askin mi abt them. realli wished i wasnt homez tat nitez. argh~!
mon:
went back to dunman for the project AGAIN.. hahaz.. cleaned up my baobei. tried the mechanism. it's stil workin.. well.. polished it wid the help from an intern. oso an ex-dunmanite. ah boon. hahaz.. my technician for the dae. taught mi how to use the tranformer and stuff. den went to look for weida for the clip. (we haven add in the sound) finished ard 4 le.. miss kwek went for a meetin, so i went over to the netball court to look for my juniors while waitin for miss kwek and erika(my partner).. she finished her meetin onli at 7 plus..but the clip cant be played from her com! omg~ wat a long wasted wait..! mr tan den dropped mi off at Clearwater condo and i took a buz homez.. watched the 1st epsiode of 'Creatively Mine' hmm.. dunnoe if i will be able to answer their mani whys.. hahaz.. i tink.. MAYBE. hope i get tay ping hui for my grp!! hahaz.. cant wait for thurs to come..
AND btw.. those ppl who are comin down to support. a note for you:
plz arrive at 5.30pm (try ur veri best!) buy some food in (aniting) as you will not be able to go in and out the studio. bring along some 'entertainments' coz it will be borin and long, and a jacket as it will be cold there. =) call mi if you hae any more enquires...
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