for now, lunching out is a chore. you see ppl ppl ppl everywhere. i need to venture around the area to look for good, cheap and quieter place for lunch. a lunch guide would be nice. hahahaz..

i need to learn to let go in work. i can't be covering for everyone and i shouldn't be checking on ppl's work. i need to trust that others will also do their job with integrity. im only just an employee.

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missing sh badly. missing the beautiful sky and weather in europe. how i wish i can stay there a little longer.. i would love to travel to the other parts of europe and even back to the few countries that we have been to. it was a good break away from city life. a break away from the hustle and bustle. just you, me, the sky, the grass and the cultural sights.

Thank god for all these inventions. i couldn't recall how i had survived 2 weeks in china without any form of verbal/visual communication with sh. how it suck.

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Had foreseen the coming hectic week. oohh.. why is september such a busy month?? VOE company activity and the shifting to our new office to Asia square. it's going to be a dreadful journey to work from next month onwards. i will miss the old office. The convenience, the location, the lunch, the shopping, the pubs, the everything.. oohhhh..

If time can fly and let the remaining 3months hurried off.. I am so looking forward to Jan'12, that's when sh will be back from his school exchange. aaahhh..

I know there's skype and whatsapp and facebook and sugarsyn and some more other ways to stay connected though we are far apart.. nothing beats holding you in my arms real tight..

Play hard but not too wild. hahahz..

I miss you

I let excuses take over and time passes by on its own. I'm in control of nothing. i have no big dreams. no goal in life. no strong desires. nothing.

When i ponder further, i realize how aimless i am. are there such people like me - breast no big mole?

Maybe i'm too comfortable now; so much so that i have nothing much to work towards for. no issues, no bother.

A simple life is not a simplistic life.

I need some plans in life...

nov/dec just zoomed away so quickly.

in our school days, every new year means something more to us. like we are closer to the exams or to the last yr of JC/uni. we are much more aware and concerned about it. now, it's just another year.. another new year.. oohh man, i feel so old!

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I was taking a train back from work or somewhere once and there's a couple sitting opposite me having the 'cold war'. the girl ignored the guy, no matter how he tried to get her attention. at one point, she took out her ipod/mp3 and pretended to sleep. he couldn't stand it and pulled her ear piece off. she snatched it and put them back on. they stood far apart when they were alighting.

it's not something uncommon. when the girls get angry/unhappy, they will either scream/curse their heads off or give the guy the silent treatment. no matter what, the girls are always right. many guys will agree to this. it's always them who are giving in.. 'coz girls always cry.

but sometimes, i wonder.. is it that difficult to sit down and talk it out.. tell the other party what you are unhappy about, what is driving you mad, what is causing you not to smile... leave the sarcasm and comparison aside. just say them out plainly with your true feelings. there's no point trying to hurt each other's feelings - you love each other, remember??

there are many times we put things off before we even try. theres a mental barrier in us that stops us from doing many things that we wanna do. we start imagining what will happen if we do/say something, how will others react, how will they think of me..

actually, thats two different issues. couples - pls learn to be honest with one another. communication helps. dont give the silent treatment, thinking the other part will understand what went wrong or what you really want.

for the wants vs mind issue - just be happy with what you are doing.

this entry is not leading to anywhere.. i just wanna talk to someone.. someone out at the greengreen grass...

life has been great. so great that i dont wanna return home. to work. i wouldnt say that phuket is the most exciting, interesting place to be, 'coz there's really nothing much for me to do there.. probably becoz im not interested in muay thai, ping pongs, sexy fun massages, animal abuse.. but for everything else, that place is perfect for relaxation. there's nothing much to do, nothing much to plan and thus nothing much to worry... you are just there to be away from reality. hahahz..

IF i can swim well, i will be enjoying myself better as i will be able to snorkel further and even try diving there. that will be my next goal - diving. but first, i need to know how to swim - without the help from the life vest, snorkel mask, breathing tube and a guiding hand. at least, sh let me know that i can float without the help from the vest. i still need the tube and mask on so that i can breath and swim at the same time. i get to feed the fishes and see them chionging towards me, okie, the bread and bananas that we have in our hands. see them feeding right in my face. sooo cute. soooo fun.

the other first try would be elephant trekking, in the rain. oh, i forgot to say that it rained (on-off) for the 1st 3days of our trip, the last day was perfect sunny weather to either get yourself baked under the sun or lock yourself up in an air-conditioned jeep and roam round the island. we chose the latter. the weather was so hot, it made me so sleepy - i spent almost a third of the time 'exploring' phuket town in my sleep.

i actually thought theres nth much to spend but i actually spend quite alot there, becoz the things there arent cheap.

i snorkeled, i drove, i elephant trekked, i had breakfast on the beach, i sat on a motorbike, i drank chang, i watched House, i saw water buffaloes, i lunched by the beach, i rolled about on the oversize double bed, i spent 4 days not knowing whats next etcetcetc and i did all these with sh by my side. =)

oh one more thing. i went into an ARSENAL fan club shop and bought a tee there. =) red is still hot!! but you are hotter, sh, always.

hectic.

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world cup has ended! and 'Go spain Go' won me a lunch.

im a big Argentina fan but decided to bet on Spain after they lose to swis in their first match. and luck got me a waraku lunch from my colleague. hahahz.. talk about no free lunch in the world.

life is now revolving around work, my colleagues and more work-related matters. sh always has to listen to my yapping and complains. it always nice to know that there will be someone willing to listen to all these craps with no complains, maybe.. not yet =) when you talk it out, you will realize that these are actually nothing. just part and parcel of work.

there were some unexpected happenings, both good and bad ones. it's always tough to make the correct decision because there will times where there is no right decision but to only settle with the best.